WEBVTT 00:00:14.859 --> 00:00:19.019 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% >> I'M EXCITED. YOU KNOW, FOR ME, I THINK GOING INTO THIS 00:00:19.030 --> 00:00:22.940 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OLYMPICS, MY MY MENTAL STATE IS WAY DIFFERENT THAN IT WAS GOING 00:00:22.949 --> 00:00:24.070 line:85% position:50% size:80% INTO TOKYO, 00:00:24.559 --> 00:00:27.329 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, JUST BEING REMOVED FROM THE OLYMPICS IN TOKYO. 00:00:27.339 --> 00:00:29.000 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I KIND OF WANTED TO GET BACK IN THERE 00:00:29.410 --> 00:00:33.179 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THIS TIME AROUND. I'M I'M EXCITED. I'M EXCITED TO WATCH. 00:00:33.189 --> 00:00:37.159 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'M EXCITED TO CHEER. I'M EXCITED TO WATCH THIS. THIS 00:00:37.170 --> 00:00:39.890 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THESE ATHLETES BE ABLE TO TRY TO ACCOMPLISH THEIR LIFETIME 00:00:39.899 --> 00:00:43.159 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% GOALS AND DREAMS. I LIKE WINNING A GOLD MEDAL IS LESS 00:00:43.170 --> 00:00:44.320 line:85% position:50% size:80% THAN ONE PERCENT OF ONE PERCENT 00:00:44.820 --> 00:00:47.799 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% RIGHT. SO TO BE ABLE TO HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY IS SO SPECIAL 00:00:48.240 --> 00:00:51.479 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND TO BE ABLE TO WATCH SOMEBODY AGAIN DO THAT. 00:00:52.210 --> 00:00:52.850 line:85% position:50% size:80% IT'S A COOL FEELING. 00:01:12.569 --> 00:01:15.049 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, RIGHT NOW THERE'S THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN REALLY 00:01:15.060 --> 00:01:18.260 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DO DIFFERENT TO PREPARE, RIGHT? LIKE THE LESS THAN 100 DAYS 00:01:18.269 --> 00:01:22.030 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OUT. JUST DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IT? IT'S IT'S IT IS THE OLYMPIC 00:01:22.040 --> 00:01:23.340 line:85% position:50% size:80% GAMES SHORTS, 00:01:23.829 --> 00:01:28.079 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THIS MASSIVE, MASSIVE SPORTING EVENT. BUT IT'S THE SAME THING 00:01:28.090 --> 00:01:30.530 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU'VE DONE YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE, RIGHT? LIKE THE LIGHTS 00:01:30.540 --> 00:01:31.420 line:85% position:50% size:80% MIGHT BE BRIGHTER. 00:01:31.879 --> 00:01:34.980 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT FOR US, THE POOLS, THE SAME TEMPERATURE, LANDLINES, THE 00:01:34.989 --> 00:01:37.480 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SAME WITH THE PART WE'RE COMPETING AGAINST SAME PEOPLE 00:01:37.489 --> 00:01:40.150 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE'VE COMPETED AGAINST THE LAST HOW MANY YEARS, RIGHT? JUST GET 00:01:40.159 --> 00:01:44.790 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% UP AND BE YOU, YOU KNOW, SAY FOR THE AMERICAN TEAM. I WILL 00:01:44.799 --> 00:01:48.170 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BE OVER THERE. BUT I KNOW THEY WILL HAVE A COUNTRY FILLED WITH 00:01:48.180 --> 00:01:51.900 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PEOPLE SCREAMING THEIR HEARTS OUT. I'M HOPING WE TAKE AS MANY 00:01:51.909 --> 00:01:55.280 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MEDALS AS WE CAN. AND AND OUR ATHLETES REPRESENT OUR COUNTRY 00:01:55.290 --> 00:01:56.109 line:85% position:50% size:80% THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE. 00:02:04.109 --> 00:02:06.859 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT'S YEAH, IT'S I THINK IT'S A LITTLE DIFFERENT NOW. IT IS FOR 00:02:06.870 --> 00:02:09.500 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ME NOW GOING INTO THIS OLYMPICS. I THINK 00:02:10.449 --> 00:02:15.860 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'M OK WITH EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST AND I'M 00:02:15.870 --> 00:02:18.729 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% READY TO KIND OF JUST MOVE ON FROM FROM MY SWIMMING CAREER. 00:02:18.770 --> 00:02:21.849 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, I THINK, AGAIN, LIKE, YOU KNOW, HAVING THE CHANCE TO 00:02:21.860 --> 00:02:23.879 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BE IN THE STANDS IS WAY DIFFERENT THAN BEING ON THE 00:02:23.889 --> 00:02:26.860 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% POOL DECK. YOU KNOW, AND IN TOKYO, I WANTED TO BE DOWN 00:02:26.870 --> 00:02:28.180 line:85% position:50% size:80% THERE. I JUST 00:02:28.599 --> 00:02:32.710 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I MISSED JUST THAT FEELING OF OF WALKING ON THE POOL DECK AND 00:02:32.719 --> 00:02:35.490 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WEARING THE STARS AND STRIPES AND HEARING THE NATIONAL ANTHEM 00:02:35.500 --> 00:02:38.550 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PLAYED LIKE ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MEMORIES THAT I HAVE EVER 00:02:38.560 --> 00:02:42.719 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'M BUT I'M YOU KNOW, AGAIN, LOOKING FORWARD TO BEING ON THE 00:02:42.729 --> 00:02:47.120 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OTHER SIDE, BEING ABLE TO COMMENTATE BEING ABLE TO WATCH. 00:02:47.129 --> 00:02:50.310 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND HOPEFULLY I DO GET SOME TIDBITS ON ON WHAT I SEE 00:02:50.319 --> 00:02:51.129 line:85% position:50% size:80% THROUGHOUT THE OLYMPICS. 00:02:54.400 --> 00:02:55.090 line:85% position:50% size:80% CHARLIE 00:03:03.219 --> 00:03:09.139 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOW, JUST I MEAN, IT'S EASIEST WAY TO SAID JUST BECAUSE NOW 00:03:09.150 --> 00:03:12.150 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WITH 4 KIDS AND AND HONESTLY LOOKING BACK THROUGHOUT MY 00:03:12.159 --> 00:03:13.909 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CAREER, THERE'S NOTHING ELSE TO DO. 00:03:14.539 --> 00:03:17.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND AND, YOU KNOW, THERE'S NO PASSION INSIDE HERE OF, YOU 00:03:17.969 --> 00:03:20.830 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOW, THAT'S BURNING TO GET ME OUT OF BED TO DO ONE MORE TIME. 00:03:21.189 --> 00:03:25.469 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND I KNOW WHAT MY OLD AGE OLD AGE OF UP TO 39 THIS YEAR. 00:03:25.830 --> 00:03:29.280 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT IT WILL TAKE 5 YEARS FOR ME REALLY GET BACK. YOU KNOW, 00:03:29.289 --> 00:03:31.990 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I THINK THE WHOLE PROCESS OF PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY 00:03:32.000 --> 00:03:35.460 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PREPARING FOR THE OLYMPIC GAMES IS CHALLENGING. SO FOR ME TO BE 00:03:35.469 --> 00:03:38.300 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ABLE TO GIVE MYSELF THE BEST CHANCE TO BE ABLE TO PERFORM, 00:03:38.310 --> 00:03:39.460 line:85% position:50% size:80% HOW I WOULD WANT TO 00:03:39.969 --> 00:03:41.009 line:85% position:50% size:80% IT WOULD TAKE 5 YEARS. 00:03:43.389 --> 00:03:45.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THERE'S NOTHING INSIDE OF ME THAT WANTS TO COME BACK, 00:03:45.270 --> 00:03:45.449 line:85% position:50% size:80% RIGHT? 00:03:47.490 --> 00:03:50.500 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'VE DONE IT ONCE. I'M NOT NOT GOING DOWN THAT WAY. 00:04:10.620 --> 00:04:14.280 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OBVIOUSLY I HAVE MY DAY IS LIKE EVERYONE DOES RIGHT. WE GO 00:04:14.289 --> 00:04:15.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THROUGH UPS AND DOWNS AND THAT'S JUST LIFE. 00:04:17.220 --> 00:04:20.370 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I FEEL LIKE I HAVE MORE TOOLS NOW TO PREPARE ME THROUGH THE 00:04:20.970 --> 00:04:24.160 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE BUMPS OF THE ROLLER COASTERS LIKE I I CALL THEM 00:04:24.170 --> 00:04:28.329 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT I GO THROUGH MY LIFE. AND YEAH, I'M ENJOYING RIGHT, 00:04:28.339 --> 00:04:30.550 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LIKE, YOU KNOW, BEING RETIRED AGAIN AND AND 00:04:31.040 --> 00:04:33.100 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BEING ABLE TO TALK ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH, WHICH IS SOMETHING 00:04:33.110 --> 00:04:35.759 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT, YOU KNOW, PERSONALLY, I STRUGGLE WITH ALMOST EVERY 00:04:35.769 --> 00:04:38.660 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SINGLE DAY. AND AND, YOU KNOW, DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY AREN'T 00:04:38.670 --> 00:04:41.860 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% JUST GOING TO DISAPPEAR, RIGHT? THESE ARE THINGS THAT I HAVE TO 00:04:41.870 --> 00:04:44.740 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ADAPT AND I HAVE ADOPTED THROUGHOUT MY LIFE AND THEY ARE 00:04:44.750 --> 00:04:47.699 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PART OF MY LIFE ALWAYS GOING TO BE A PART OF MY LIFE. SO IT'S 00:04:47.709 --> 00:04:49.970 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FINDING THE BEST WAY EVERY SINGLE DAY TO BE THE BEST 00:04:49.980 --> 00:04:50.649 line:85% position:50% size:80% VERSION OF ME. 00:04:57.399 --> 00:04:59.709 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YEAH, I MEAN, THERE ARE TIMES WHEN THEY'RE, YOU KNOW, 10 DAY 00:04:59.720 --> 00:05:03.540 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SPELLS WHERE EVERY DAY IS A STRUGGLE. BUT FOR ME, IT'S WHAT 00:05:03.550 --> 00:05:06.029 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CAN I CONTROL IN THAT MOMENT, RIGHT? YOU KNOW, LIKE, OKAY, 00:05:06.040 --> 00:05:07.810 line:85% position:50% size:80% I'M NOT FEELING THE BEST. 00:05:08.560 --> 00:05:12.800 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HOW CAN I GET TO SOME LEVEL WHERE I CAN BE A GOOD DAD? 00:05:12.810 --> 00:05:16.129 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I CAN BE A GOOD HUSBAND. I CAN BE A GOOD FRIEND. YOU 00:05:16.139 --> 00:05:19.600 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOW, LIKE NOT JUST SIT IN A CORNER LIKE I FEEL AND CURL UP 00:05:19.610 --> 00:05:23.339 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% INTO A BALL. RIGHT? LIKE FOR ME, I GUESS I FOUND WAYS TO 00:05:23.350 --> 00:05:27.829 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KIND OF GET MYSELF OUT OF THAT ZONE. YOU CAN TURN THE CHANNEL 00:05:27.839 --> 00:05:30.519 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ON THE TV AND YOUR HEAD. YOUR BRAIN LIKE THINK ABOUT 00:05:30.529 --> 00:05:32.569 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SOMETHING DIFFERENT, RIGHT? TURN THE DENTIST FOR THE 00:05:32.579 --> 00:05:35.120 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BRIGHTNESS UP OR DOWN. RIGHT. SO DIFFERENT WAYS TO THINK 00:05:35.129 --> 00:05:38.230 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ABOUT IT FOR ME. I JUMP IN A COLD PLUNGE IN THE MORNING. 00:05:38.240 --> 00:05:41.019 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I FOR ME THE CHILLY GO TO SOMETHING THAT I GET IN EVERY 00:05:41.029 --> 00:05:44.810 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SINGLE DAY. NO MATTER WHAT. LIKE A SHOOTING LAST NIGHT FOR 00:05:44.819 --> 00:05:47.870 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% A FOR A SPONSOR THIS MORNING. THE KIDS ARE OUT THERE UP AT 00:05:47.879 --> 00:05:51.519 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% 5.30, ON THE MORNING. I HAD A BREAKFAST GOING TO PUT OUT THE 00:05:51.529 --> 00:05:52.189 line:85% position:50% size:80% DOOR SO 00:05:52.839 --> 00:05:55.800 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I HAVE TO BE UP AND AT THE READY, THAT'S SOMETHING FOR ME. 00:05:55.810 --> 00:05:59.170 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT ALLOWS ME TO BE IN THE MOMENT, RIGHT? SO THE SELF CARE 00:05:59.180 --> 00:06:02.930 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT I DO FOR MYSELF EVERY SINGLE DAY, ALLOW ME TO BE ME 00:06:02.939 --> 00:06:04.290 line:85% position:50% size:80% WHEN I DON'T ALWAYS WANT TO BE 00:06:04.779 --> 00:06:08.040 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% RIGHT. SO YEAH, THERE ARE DAYS WHERE I DO WANT TO CURL UP. 00:06:08.050 --> 00:06:09.459 line:85% position:50% size:80% I WANT TO JUST HIDE, BUT 00:06:10.189 --> 00:06:13.069 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I HAVE TO BE SO MUCH DIFFERENT NOT TO BE SO MUCH SOMEBODY 00:06:13.079 --> 00:06:15.379 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DIFFERENT BETTER THAN THAT. AND I KNOW I CAN YOU KNOW, 00:06:15.389 --> 00:06:18.220 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AGAIN THROUGH THE WORK THAT I'VE DONE THE PROCESS OF 00:06:18.230 --> 00:06:21.180 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FINDING MORE ABOUT ME AND LEARNING WHY I WORK EVERY 00:06:21.189 --> 00:06:22.220 line:85% position:50% size:80% SINGLE WAY, THE WEB, EVERY 00:06:22.870 --> 00:06:26.819 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHY WORK EVERY SINGLE DAY, THE WAY THAT I DO, IT WAS A PROCESS 00:06:26.829 --> 00:06:27.750 line:85% position:50% size:80% THAT WAS HARD, BUT 00:06:28.139 --> 00:06:31.110 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'M BETTER NOW, RIGHT? YOU KNOW, LIKE FOR ME THROUGHOUT MY 00:06:31.120 --> 00:06:34.370 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CAREER, I LOOKED AT MYSELF AS A SWIMMER IN AN ATHLETE. NOW I 00:06:34.379 --> 00:06:36.839 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CAN LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SEE A PERSON. SOME OF THAT HAS 00:06:36.850 --> 00:06:41.250 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FEELINGS, EMOTIONS. SO YEAH, THAT ONE DAY AT A TIME, YOU 00:06:41.259 --> 00:06:44.370 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOW, LIKE AGAIN, I'M NOT TRYING OUT A FUTURE TRIP. 00:06:44.379 --> 00:06:47.649 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I TRY NOT TO PLAY IN THE PAST. YOU KNOW, IF I AM PLAYING IN 00:06:47.660 --> 00:06:50.439 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE PAST, I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY I'M GOING THROUGH MY 00:06:50.449 --> 00:06:54.569 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% UPS AND DOWNS. SO FOR ME I JOURNAL A TON. I CAN GO BACK 00:06:54.579 --> 00:06:58.930 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND SEE WHY HAD THIS DAY. WHY HAVE THAT? SO TALK SO MUCH 00:06:58.939 --> 00:07:03.370 line:85% position:50% size:80% IS TIME TO STOP THE U.S. 00:07:10.759 --> 00:07:11.329 line:85% position:50% size:80% TRUMP, ISN'T IT? 00:07:19.139 --> 00:07:24.810 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I WOULD SAY PROBABLY 2004, 2004 WAS MY FIRST TASTE OF 00:07:24.819 --> 00:07:28.149 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% POST-OLYMPIC DEPRESSION. YOU KNOW, COMING OFF SUCH A 00:07:28.160 --> 00:07:30.949 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HIGH. IT'S BASICALLY YOU GET TO AND I THINK THE EDGE OF THE 00:07:30.959 --> 00:07:32.560 line:85% position:50% size:80% CLIFF NEAR LIKE COOL. NOW, 00:07:33.410 --> 00:07:35.730 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I GUESS WE'LL WAIT 4 MORE YEARS. HOW THE CHANCE TO DO IT 00:07:35.740 --> 00:07:39.420 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AGAIN, RIGHT? SO AND FOR THOSE WHO DON'T HAVE A SUCCESSFUL 00:07:39.430 --> 00:07:42.110 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OLYMPICS, THOSE 4 YEARS CAN FEEL LIKE AN ABSOLUTELY TURN A 00:07:42.120 --> 00:07:42.550 line:85% position:50% size:80% T. 00:07:42.850 --> 00:07:48.670 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO FOR ME, 2004 IS MY FIRST 2008 WAS MY SECOND TASTE OF 00:07:48.680 --> 00:07:52.899 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% POST OLYMPIC DEPRESSION BECAUSE COMING OFF OF THAT HIGH AFTER 00:07:52.910 --> 00:07:55.589 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DOING SOMETHING HE SET UP LIKE YOU SET OUT TO DO YOUR WHOLE 00:07:55.600 --> 00:07:56.300 line:85% position:50% size:80% ENTIRE LIFE. 00:07:56.769 --> 00:07:59.579 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I LIKE MY MY GOAL IS TO DO SOMETHING NO ONE ELSE HAS EVER 00:07:59.589 --> 00:08:00.480 line:85% position:50% size:80% DONE BEFORE. 00:08:01.180 --> 00:08:03.779 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I DID IT BY THE AGE OF 1920, YEARS OLD. 00:08:07.259 --> 00:08:10.439 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SORRY. 23 YEARS OLD. I WAS 23 YEARS. 23. SO 00:08:15.569 --> 00:08:17.750 line:85% position:50% size:80% YEAH, I'M NOT SURE YET. 00:08:21.129 --> 00:08:23.290 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I THINK AT THAT POINT, YOU KNOW, LIKE 00:08:23.899 --> 00:08:26.610 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ALSO AS A MALE ATHLETE, YOU KNOW, LIKE I CAN TELL SOMETHING 00:08:26.620 --> 00:08:28.180 line:85% position:50% size:80% WAS OFF. 00:08:28.709 --> 00:08:31.589 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT I THINK I SAW IT AS A SIGN OF WEAKNESS. AND IF I SHARED 00:08:31.600 --> 00:08:34.669 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ANYTHING ABOUT IT, THEN IT WOULD GIVE MY COMPETITORS AND 00:08:34.679 --> 00:08:37.809 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EDGE. AND I'M NOT TRYING TO DO THAT, RIGHT? LIKE I DON'T WANT 00:08:37.820 --> 00:08:40.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TO GET MY COMPETITORS AND I'M TRYING TO BE BETTER THAN 00:08:40.070 --> 00:08:42.250 line:85% position:50% size:80% ANYBODY PERIOD HAS EVER BEEN. 00:08:42.759 --> 00:08:45.879 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO FOR ME, I LOOKED AT IT AS WEAKNESS. SO FOR ME, I HAD TO 00:08:45.889 --> 00:08:46.769 line:85% position:50% size:80% LEARN THAT 00:08:47.149 --> 00:08:48.559 line:85% position:50% size:80% VULNERABILITY IS A GOOD THING. 00:08:50.190 --> 00:08:53.470 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT WAS SCARY AT FIRST. BUT I LEARNED THAT VULNERABILITY JUST 00:08:53.480 --> 00:08:54.289 line:85% position:50% size:80% MEANS CHANGE. 00:08:54.940 --> 00:08:56.309 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND FOR ME, IT WAS A GREAT CHANGE. 00:09:11.830 --> 00:09:15.309 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE OWNER OF A OWN RECORDS NOW. BUT I THINK 00:09:15.669 --> 00:09:18.759 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TO THAT POINT, I THINK I PUT PRESSURE ON MYSELF THAT NO 00:09:18.769 --> 00:09:22.820 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OTHER HUMAN ON THE PLANET POSSIBLY COULD BECAUSE I WANTED 00:09:22.830 --> 00:09:27.399 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TO DO SOMETHING AGAIN. NO ONE HAS EVER DONE. AND SO CORRECT. 00:09:27.409 --> 00:09:30.940 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT FOR ME, I I HAD TO APPROACH IT LIKE NO ONE ELSE HAS. 00:09:31.210 --> 00:09:34.210 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THERE'S NO BLUEPRINT. ANYTHING THAT I DID RIGHT WAS ALL TRIAL 00:09:34.220 --> 00:09:37.929 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND ERROR. SO I HAD TO PLAY WITH CERTAIN THINGS. AND IF I 00:09:37.940 --> 00:09:40.200 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OPEN UP, MAYBE WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT IF IT WOULD BE 00:09:40.210 --> 00:09:42.379 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BETTER, MAYBE, BUT MAYBE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN WORSE. 00:09:43.389 --> 00:09:44.549 line:85% position:50% size:80% I THINK WHEN I YOU KNOW, 00:09:45.169 --> 00:09:48.429 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHEN I LOOK BACK AT WHEN I OPENED UP IN 2014 AFTER COMING 00:09:48.440 --> 00:09:49.190 line:85% position:50% size:80% OUT OF TREATMENT, 00:09:49.850 --> 00:09:53.379 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT HAPPENED FOR A REASON RIGHT AT THE RIGHT TIME AT THE RIGHT 00:09:53.389 --> 00:09:54.779 line:85% position:50% size:80% PLACE. 00:09:55.419 --> 00:09:58.519 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHATEVER THE REPORTER ASKED ME THAT DAY, WE'RE DOING OUR PIECE 00:09:58.529 --> 00:09:59.429 line:85% position:50% size:80% FOR S I 00:09:59.950 --> 00:10:01.500 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT THE QUESTION WAS. 00:10:02.509 --> 00:10:04.500 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT I GUESS IT JUST MADE ME FEEL CALM AND SAFE 00:10:05.080 --> 00:10:08.629 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND IT IT ALLOWED ME TO OPEN UP AND JUST SHOW I WAS I THINK AT 00:10:08.639 --> 00:10:12.450 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT POINT FORWARD, I'VE NEVER LOOKED BACK. YOU KNOW, I THINK 00:10:12.460 --> 00:10:15.779 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FOR ME, YOU KNOW, YOU SAW YOU SAW SOMEBODY, YOU KNOW, 00:10:16.860 --> 00:10:19.419 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I THINK THROUGHOUT MY CAREER I WAS 00:10:20.000 --> 00:10:24.889 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PUT UP AS THIS AMERICANS ICON THIS PERFECT POSTER BOY OF 00:10:24.899 --> 00:10:25.789 line:85% position:50% size:80% EVERYTHING. 00:10:27.350 --> 00:10:30.399 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% NO, THAT'S NOT THE CASE. I'M HUMAN. 00:10:30.990 --> 00:10:33.009 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND WE KNOW IN LIFE, NOTHING IS PERFECT. 00:10:33.730 --> 00:10:37.200 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO I WENT THROUGH UPS AND DOWNS AND I DID IN THE PUBLIC EYE, 00:10:38.070 --> 00:10:40.009 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE UPS AND DOWNS THAT I WENT THROUGH MY LIFE OR IN THE 00:10:40.019 --> 00:10:40.570 line:85% position:50% size:80% PUBLIC EYE. 00:10:42.019 --> 00:10:45.450 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I HAD TO DEAL WITH THAT. PLUS 2 OF MY OWN STAFF. SO THE 00:10:45.460 --> 00:10:47.620 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ONLY THING I KNEW HOW TO DO AT THAT POINT WAS TO 00:10:47.629 --> 00:10:51.409 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% COMPARTMENTALIZE, YOU KNOW, LIKE IF I THINK BACK TO MY MOM 00:10:51.690 --> 00:10:54.009 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND HER PARENTS AND THEIR PARENTS, PARENTS, 00:10:54.700 --> 00:10:57.779 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THEY TAUGHT THEM TO SHOVE IT DOWN AND PRETEND LIKE 00:10:57.789 --> 00:11:01.240 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EVERYTHING IS OK WHEN INSIDE IT MIGHT NOT BE. AND THAT'S NOT A 00:11:01.250 --> 00:11:04.070 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOCK ON MY PARENTS AND MY MOM BY ANY MEANS, 00:11:05.009 --> 00:11:08.909 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CORRECT? CORRECT. SO FOR ME LIKE THIS IS A TIME WHERE WE 00:11:08.919 --> 00:11:10.419 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAVE TO MAKE A GENERATIONAL SHIFT. 00:11:11.139 --> 00:11:14.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ALL RIGHT. WE HAVE TO SHOW WHEN WE'RE NOT DOING VERY WELL. 00:11:14.389 --> 00:11:17.220 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I LIKE TO ME IN MY HOUSEHOLD WHEN I'M HAVING A BAD DAY, 00:11:17.230 --> 00:11:18.379 line:85% position:50% size:80% MY KIDS SEE ME CRY. 00:11:19.110 --> 00:11:22.470 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MY KIDS SEE ME SCREAM. THEY SEE ME JUST BREAKING DOWN 00:11:23.240 --> 00:11:24.789 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND THEY UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON. 00:11:25.279 --> 00:11:28.669 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO FOR ME, I'VE IMPLEMENTED WHEN I SAY SCREAM, IT'S NOT 00:11:28.679 --> 00:11:29.000 line:85% position:50% size:80% LIKE 00:11:29.860 --> 00:11:32.440 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THIS IS WHAT SO WHEN I SAY SCREAM, IT MEANS 00:11:32.870 --> 00:11:34.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE IMPLEMENTED THIS THING CALLED A LION BREATH. SO THE 00:11:34.970 --> 00:11:38.250 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LINE BREATH IS DEEP BREATH AND YOU GET TO ROAR AS LOUD AS YOU 00:11:38.259 --> 00:11:40.679 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CAN. AND SOMETIMES IN THOSE MOMENTS, WHEN YOU SCREAM AS 00:11:40.690 --> 00:11:43.759 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LOUD AS YOU CAN, YOU'RE YOU'RE ABLE TO DROP YOUR SHOULDERS, 00:11:44.039 --> 00:11:47.299 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE FEELING, 00:11:47.309 --> 00:11:49.379 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH. AND FOR ME COMMUNICATING 00:11:49.389 --> 00:11:51.190 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SOMETHING THAT I THINK IT'S SUPER IMPORTANT. 00:11:51.629 --> 00:11:53.470 line:85% position:50% size:80% I LEARNED VERY, VERY 00:11:54.259 --> 00:11:57.440 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MUCH LATER IN LIFE AND I WOULD LIKE TO BUT I GOT THERE. 00:11:57.450 --> 00:11:59.830 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO I THINK FOR ME IT'S TRYING TO TEACH THEM TO COMMUNICATE 00:11:59.840 --> 00:12:02.289 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THESE THINGS, NOT COMPARTMENTALIZE LIKE I DID FOR 00:12:02.299 --> 00:12:02.980 line:85% position:50% size:80% 2 DECADES. 00:12:12.769 --> 00:12:16.309 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% >> THAT YOU RAISE THE GOT A DUI SPOKEN ABOUT THIS POINT. 00:12:21.840 --> 00:12:22.649 line:85% position:50% size:80% THE REPORT IS. 00:12:30.700 --> 00:12:34.779 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% >> YEAH, I MEAN, I THINK IN THAT MOMENT FOR ME, YOU KNOW, 00:12:34.789 --> 00:12:39.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THERE'S A LOT OF SHAME AND I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO REALLY LIKE 00:12:39.070 --> 00:12:41.440 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I HAD THE THOUGHT OF LIKE IT WAS ME THAT WAS PUTTING MY 00:12:41.450 --> 00:12:44.370 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FAMILY THROUGH ALL OF THIS STRESS AND ALL OF THIS. NICE 00:12:44.379 --> 00:12:46.330 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LIKE, OKAY, MAYBE IT'S BETTER IF I JUST LEAVE. 00:12:46.970 --> 00:12:50.700 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND AT THE TIME I WAS PRESCRIBED AMBIEN FROM OUR OUR 00:12:50.710 --> 00:12:54.919 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DOCTORS ON OUR OUR TEAM TRIPS AND I WAS HAPPY. I ONLY HAD 3, 00:12:54.929 --> 00:12:57.029 line:85% position:50% size:80% 3, PILLS LEFT, 00:12:57.580 --> 00:13:01.009 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT ALL THAT NIGHT AND I WOKE UP THE NEXT MORNING AND DIDN'T 00:13:01.019 --> 00:13:03.629 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EAT ANYTHING TO DRINK ANYTHING LIKE 2 OR 3 DAYS. 00:13:04.259 --> 00:13:06.929 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND AFTER THOSE 2 OR 3 DAYS THAT I DIDN'T REALLY WANT TO 00:13:06.940 --> 00:13:09.549 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TALK TO ME, BUT HE DIDN'T WANT TO SEE ANYBODY. IT WAS KIND OF 00:13:09.559 --> 00:13:11.970 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% JUST TO THE POINT WHERE I KNEW I NEEDED HELP. 00:13:13.419 --> 00:13:16.179 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE THOUGHTS THAT I WAS HAVING WERE TOO MUCH AND THEY WERE 00:13:16.190 --> 00:13:19.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OVERWHELMING AND THEY'RE SCARY. SO FOR ME, I COULDN'T GO 00:13:19.269 --> 00:13:22.330 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THROUGH LIFE ANYMORE. ONE NOT SHARING THOSE, 00:13:22.759 --> 00:13:24.659 line:85% position:50% size:80% BUT TO NOT 00:13:25.350 --> 00:13:29.389 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% NOT FACING. I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT REALLY JUST DIVING DEEP 00:13:29.399 --> 00:13:33.029 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% INTO ME AND FIGURING OUT WHY I AM WHO I AM. WHY DO I STRUGGLE 00:13:33.039 --> 00:13:36.970 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO MUCH? WHY DO I GO THROUGH THESE UPS AND DOWNS AND SWINGS? 00:13:36.980 --> 00:13:39.200 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO FOR ME AT THAT POINT, I JUST CHECKED MYSELF INTO A TREATMENT 00:13:39.210 --> 00:13:42.009 line:85% position:50% size:80% CENTER FOR 45 45 DOES WHAT? 00:13:44.779 --> 00:13:48.570 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YEAH, OBVIOUSLY GOT RIPPED APART. AND I SAY THAT UNLIKE 00:13:49.429 --> 00:13:52.139 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IMAGINE LIKE MOTHER BOARD OF A COMPUTER, 00:13:52.649 --> 00:13:56.720 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU JUST TAKE EVERYTHING APART. IT IS KIND OF REBUILD AND TALK 00:13:56.730 --> 00:13:59.909 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ABOUT WHETHER IT'S, YOU KNOW, MY CHILDHOOD THINGS THAT I'M 00:13:59.919 --> 00:14:03.169 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAVING DIFFICULTY TIMES WITH GOOD THINGS AND KIND OF JUST 00:14:03.179 --> 00:14:04.539 line:85% position:50% size:80% PIECING IT ALL BACK TOGETHER. 00:14:05.000 --> 00:14:08.470 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, FOR ME, THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I NEVER WANTED TO 00:14:08.480 --> 00:14:12.419 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TALK ABOUT. A LOT OF THAT WAS MAYBE AS MY UPBRINGING, MAYBE 00:14:12.429 --> 00:14:14.610 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AS MY FATHER, MAYBE THERE'S OTHER THINGS I'M STRUGGLING 00:14:14.620 --> 00:14:15.289 line:85% position:50% size:80% WITH. THAT IS 00:14:15.590 --> 00:14:19.669 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I WAS EMBARRASSED OF. SO FOR ME, IT IS JUST FACING THOSE 00:14:19.679 --> 00:14:21.389 line:85% position:50% size:80% THINGS. 00:14:21.879 --> 00:14:24.370 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WENT TO THIS THING CALLED FAMILY WEEK THAT I MEAN, 00:14:24.379 --> 00:14:25.980 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BASICALLY SAT IN A ROOM LIKE THIS. 00:14:26.809 --> 00:14:29.039 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THEY'RE LIKE THIS. THERE'S A BOX OF TISSUES HERE 00:14:30.059 --> 00:14:33.149 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND FOR AN HOUR EACH DAY. AND SO I WENT THROUGH A BOX OF 00:14:33.159 --> 00:14:35.509 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TISSUES. YOU JUST CRY EVERYTHING OUT. 00:14:35.899 --> 00:14:37.740 line:85% position:50% size:80% AND FOR ME, I THINK 00:14:39.389 --> 00:14:41.269 line:85% position:50% size:80% WHEN WHEN I LEFT THE MEADOWS, 00:14:42.440 --> 00:14:45.029 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I HAD A BETTER, I GUESS A BETTER UNDERSTANDING ON HOW TO 00:14:45.039 --> 00:14:46.789 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ATTACK LIFE, HOW TO APPROACH LIFE. 00:14:47.269 --> 00:14:50.490 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'M ALMOST IN A SENSE OF LIKE WHAT CAN YOU CONTROL? 00:14:51.049 --> 00:14:53.789 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ALL RIGHT. LOOK, I THINK THAT'S KIND OF WHY THAT IS SUCH A BIG, 00:14:53.799 --> 00:14:56.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IMPORTANT WORD IN MY LIFE NOW. WHAT CAN I CONTROL EVERY SINGLE 00:14:56.970 --> 00:14:59.970 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DAY? YOU KNOW, RIGHT THERE SO MUCH IS OUT OF OUR CONTROL SO 00:14:59.980 --> 00:15:02.889 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE CAN FOCUS ON WHAT WE CAN CONTROL THAN NATURAL EVERYTHING 00:15:02.899 --> 00:15:04.129 line:85% position:50% size:80% ELSE TAKES CARE OF ITSELF 00:15:09.350 --> 00:15:09.850 line:85% position:50% size:80% SHARMAN. 00:15:13.639 --> 00:15:16.649 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, I WOULD SAY FOR ME, THE SUBSTANCE THAT IS THE 00:15:16.659 --> 00:15:20.250 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SUBSTANCES THAT I WAS USING WAS IT WAS A RUN FOR JUST FOR HELP 00:15:20.259 --> 00:15:24.080 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OR A CRY FOR HELP. YOU KNOW, I THINK THAT WAS A PART OF THE 00:15:24.090 --> 00:15:27.169 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% NOT KNOWING WHO TO TALK TO AND NOT KNOWING WHICH WAY TO TURN, 00:15:27.730 --> 00:15:29.320 line:85% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, LIKE AGAIN, LIKE 00:15:29.960 --> 00:15:33.899 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT WAS 15, 20 YEARS OF STUFF. JUST BUILT UP, BUILT A BILL TO 00:15:33.909 --> 00:15:39.000 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OPEN. I'M THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS RUN. AND THAT'S WHAT I'VE 00:15:39.009 --> 00:15:42.679 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AGAIN COMPARTMENTALIZE. AND REALLY IT'S NOT HEALTHY. 00:15:42.690 --> 00:15:45.309 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I COULD WON MORE GOLD MEDALS THERE. BUT THOSE THAT WANT TO 00:15:45.320 --> 00:15:45.789 line:85% position:50% size:80% BE PROUD OF 00:15:52.960 --> 00:15:55.649 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LOOK LIKE I'M LUCKY TO BE HERE. I'M LUCKY TO HAVE EVERYTHING I 00:15:55.659 --> 00:15:58.529 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAVE. SO I'M GONNA GO DOWN SWINGING. NO MATTER WHAT LIKE I 00:15:58.539 --> 00:16:02.639 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% JUST HAD A CONVERSATION WITH. I GET CHOKED UP HERE. I SAY 00:16:02.649 --> 00:16:04.159 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CONVERSATIONS WITH A BUDDY OF MINE DAY. 00:16:30.179 --> 00:16:32.220 line:85% position:50% size:80% SO FOR ME, THIS IS ALL FRESH. 00:16:34.049 --> 00:16:37.559 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO A FRIEND OF MINE. HE'S MY MENTAL HEALTH, BUDDY. AND HE 00:16:37.570 --> 00:16:39.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOWS HE KNOWS. I'M TALKING ABOUT 00:16:41.600 --> 00:16:42.980 line:85% position:50% size:80% HOW TO SET A CASE. 00:16:43.539 --> 00:16:47.029 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% JAY GLAZER AND I ARE ARE MEANT TO WHERE MENTAL HEALTH BODIES. 00:16:47.039 --> 00:16:48.159 line:85% position:50% size:80% WE BOTH STRUGGLE 00:16:49.070 --> 00:16:51.929 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ARRESTS AND JANE, I JAY GLAZER AND I ARE BOTH MENTAL HEALTH 00:16:51.940 --> 00:16:54.100 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT IS AND WHEN WE'RE BOTH HAVING A BAD DAY, IT IS 00:16:54.600 --> 00:16:57.409 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE GO THROUGH SIMILAR UPS AND DOWNS AND 00:16:58.169 --> 00:17:01.690 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE DO SIMILAR THINGS WHEN WE'RE DOWN. THAT MAKES SENSE. 00:17:02.379 --> 00:17:03.110 line:85% position:50% size:80% AND 00:17:03.830 --> 00:17:05.690 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE BOTH HAVE THIS CONVERSATION THE OTHER DAY BECAUSE WHAT 00:17:05.700 --> 00:17:09.319 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAPPENS FOR ME, I REACHED OUT TO HIM WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM. 00:17:09.329 --> 00:17:12.480 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HE REACHED OUT TO ME AND I HAVE A COUPLE FRIENDSHIP LIKE THAT 00:17:12.490 --> 00:17:14.599 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHERE WE'VE KIND OF REALLY BEEN ABLE TO FORM A BOND 00:17:16.019 --> 00:17:18.940 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TO WHAT WE WERE SAYING BEFORE IS I LITERALLY THOUGHT ATTACKS 00:17:18.950 --> 00:17:20.720 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HIM. I WAS LIKE, I'M NEVER QUITTING 00:17:21.259 --> 00:17:23.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AFTER MY LIFE LIKE THAT'S NOT WHO I AM. 00:17:23.609 --> 00:17:27.720 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO ON THOSE DAYS WHERE YOU FEEL LIKE THIS, YOU WANT TO CRY OR 00:17:27.730 --> 00:17:30.089 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU'RE HAVING A HARD DAY OR 2 MOTIONAL, WHATEVER IT IS, 00:17:30.500 --> 00:17:31.500 line:85% position:50% size:80% YOU CAN GET THROUGH IT. 00:17:32.190 --> 00:17:33.069 line:85% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, 00:17:33.789 --> 00:17:36.559 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THIS IS ME, RIGHT, LIKE I GO THROUGH THESE UPS AND DOWNS ALL 00:17:36.569 --> 00:17:36.960 line:85% position:50% size:80% THE TIME. 00:17:38.130 --> 00:17:39.680 line:85% position:50% size:80% I KNOW THAT TOMORROW IS HERE. 00:17:40.160 --> 00:17:43.309 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND I KNOW I'M GOING TO LEARN SOMETHING FROM TODAY THAT WILL 00:17:43.319 --> 00:17:46.410 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HELP ME BETTER TOMORROW. SO FOR ME, THAT'S JUST HOW I'VE 00:17:46.420 --> 00:17:49.779 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ALWAYS BEEN. I LEARNED FROM MY PAST, YOU KNOW, FOR WHETHER 00:17:49.789 --> 00:17:52.569 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT'S A MISTAKE THAT A LEARNING EXPERIENCE, WHATEVER IT MIGHT 00:17:52.579 --> 00:17:53.900 line:85% position:50% size:80% BE HARD TO LOOK AT IT. 00:17:54.309 --> 00:17:57.279 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE PAST IS SUPPOSED TO HELP YOU FOR THE FUTURE. AND FOR ME, 00:17:57.289 --> 00:18:00.599 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE JOURNEY THAT I'VE BEEN ON, IT'S ALLOWED ME TO SEE MYSELF 00:18:00.609 --> 00:18:02.250 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IN THE MIRROR AND LIKE MYSELF, WHO I AM. 00:18:05.470 --> 00:18:07.519 line:85% position:50% size:80% I THINK LIKE NATURALLY, 00:18:08.170 --> 00:18:11.150 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I THINK I HAD REACHED OUT TO HIM EARLIER IN THE WEEK AND WE 00:18:11.160 --> 00:18:12.470 line:85% position:50% size:80% KIND OF WENT BACK AND FORTH 00:18:12.910 --> 00:18:17.009 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND HE'S SEE TO SEND ME A LONG MESSAGE. AND I JUST I MIGHT 00:18:17.019 --> 00:18:20.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SEEM LIKE A SELFIE IN THE GYM. I WAS LIKE, I'M GOING THIS 00:18:20.269 --> 00:18:23.490 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THING UP IN HERE TODAY, LIKE I GET REALLY INTENSE AND THAT 00:18:23.500 --> 00:18:25.450 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHEN I'M IN THE WEIGHT ROOM BECAUSE LIKE THAT'S THAT'S KIND 00:18:25.460 --> 00:18:26.240 line:85% position:50% size:80% OF MY ESCAPE 00:18:26.759 --> 00:18:30.740 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LIKE I GET IN A WORKOUT ROOM AND IN OUR GYM EVERY SINGLE DAY 00:18:31.019 --> 00:18:32.329 line:85% position:50% size:80% TO ALLOW ME TO BE ME. 00:18:32.730 --> 00:18:36.619 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND I KNEW. BUT HE WOULD KNOW WHAT THAT SELFIE MET ME IN THE 00:18:36.630 --> 00:18:39.359 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% GYM. SO IT WAS LIKE, YES, YOU'RE GOING TO ROCK IT OUT. 00:18:39.369 --> 00:18:42.250 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I LOVE IT. AND THAT'S WHAT IT'S LIKE. I'M NOT A QUITTER. 00:18:42.259 --> 00:18:46.190 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LIKE, YEAH, LIKE THE LAST WEEK WAS REALLY HARD FOR ME. BUT 00:18:46.559 --> 00:18:49.549 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% JUST KNOWING WEEK, RIGHT, LIKE IT'S A WAY THAT IT'S SOMETHING 00:18:49.559 --> 00:18:52.859 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT I GO THROUGH TO GIVE ME A CHANCE TO BE A BETTER VERSION 00:18:52.869 --> 00:18:53.160 line:85% position:50% size:80% OF ME. 00:18:58.019 --> 00:19:00.369 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I WON'T QUIT. I THINK I WILL NEVER GIVE UP 00:19:01.130 --> 00:19:02.329 line:85% position:50% size:80% ANYTHING THAT, YOU KNOW, 00:19:02.910 --> 00:19:05.380 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THERE'S SO MANY GOALS IN MIND THAT I HAVE AND WANT TO 00:19:05.390 --> 00:19:09.660 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ACCOMPLISH. AND NO MATTER HOW HARD IT CATS NEVER GIVING UP. 00:19:09.670 --> 00:19:12.900 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THERE'S A REASON WHY I WAS ABLE TO WIN 23 OLYMPIC GOLD MEDALS. 00:19:12.910 --> 00:19:16.730 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% RIGHT? SO I'M DETERMINED AND STUBBORN. 00:19:18.069 --> 00:19:21.920 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YEAH, YOU COULD LAUNDRY LIST OF THINGS I JUST DON'T ABOUT. 00:19:26.589 --> 00:19:29.450 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, HONESTLY, IT'S TRYING TO SAVE AS MANY PEOPLE AS WE 00:19:29.460 --> 00:19:34.180 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% POSSIBLY CAN. YOU KNOW, ONE IN 4, 1, IN 5 PEOPLE STRUGGLE WITH 00:19:34.190 --> 00:19:37.200 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SOME KIND OF MENTAL HEALTH AND HOW COME 1, 4, 5, PEOPLE ARE 00:19:37.210 --> 00:19:40.130 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TALKING ABOUT IT. THAT'S A SERIOUS PROBLEM. YOU KNOW, 00:19:40.140 --> 00:19:43.210 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FOR ME, I SEE THE SUICIDE RATE CONTINUE TO GO UP. 00:19:43.680 --> 00:19:44.400 line:85% position:50% size:80% WE WONDER WHY 00:19:45.930 --> 00:19:48.430 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I THINK CORRECT, INCLUDING MY OLYMPIC FAMILY. 00:19:50.589 --> 00:19:51.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE HAVE TO DO SOMETHING TO STOP IT. 00:19:53.150 --> 00:19:55.700 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE HAVE TO WORK TOGETHER. YOU KNOW, FOR ME, 00:19:56.670 --> 00:19:58.769 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, FOR THE START OF THIS JOURNEY, I THOUGHT I WAS ALONE 00:19:58.779 --> 00:20:00.920 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ON TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH AND NOBODY 00:20:00.930 --> 00:20:03.009 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WAS THERE WITH ME. AND I WAS JUST SCREAMING AS LOUD AS I 00:20:03.019 --> 00:20:04.279 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% COULD. AND NOBODY WAS LISTENING. 00:20:05.150 --> 00:20:07.880 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I HAVE SOME FRIENDS UP THERE WITH ME. I NEED SOME MORE. 00:20:08.410 --> 00:20:11.049 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO FOR ME, THE ONLY THING I WOULD SAY IS I'M ASKING 00:20:11.059 --> 00:20:11.839 line:85% position:50% size:80% EVERYBODY TO HELP. 00:20:12.279 --> 00:20:13.930 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ALL RIGHT. LIKE IF YOU ARE STRUGGLING, OPEN UP, 00:20:14.720 --> 00:20:17.819 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FIND SOMEBODY YOU CAN CONFIDE IN AND JUST OPEN UP. YOU KNOW, 00:20:17.829 --> 00:20:20.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THESE THINGS ARE IMPORTANT. WE WANT TO BE THE BEST VERSION 00:20:20.069 --> 00:20:20.799 line:85% position:50% size:80% OF US. 00:20:21.210 --> 00:20:24.069 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% GIVE YOURSELF THE BEST CHANCE TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF US. 00:20:40.730 --> 00:20:42.390 line:85% position:50% size:80% SURELY YOU ARE 00:20:48.980 --> 00:20:49.740 line:85% position:50% size:80% HONESTLY LIKE 00:20:50.480 --> 00:20:53.910 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EVERY SINGLE THING I'VE GONE THROUGH, WHETHER IT'S THE DUIS, 00:20:53.920 --> 00:20:54.329 line:85% position:50% size:80% ARE 00:20:55.730 --> 00:20:59.299 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DEPRESSION, SUICIDE, ANXIETY, WHATEVER IT IS, IT'S WHO I AM. 00:20:59.849 --> 00:21:03.460 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I WOULDN'T CHANGE A SINGLE BIT OF A AGAIN BECAUSE I CAN LOOK 00:21:03.470 --> 00:21:05.490 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IN THE MIRROR AND LIKE I SEE NO MATTER WHAT 00:21:18.509 --> 00:21:22.670 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, SELF-CARE OBVIOUSLY SO IMPORTANT. SO AND THAT IS A 00:21:22.680 --> 00:21:26.079 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LAUNDRY LIST OF THINGS, RIGHT? LIKE YOU CAN WORK OUT. YOU CAN 00:21:26.089 --> 00:21:30.230 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TAKE A WALK. YOU CAN MEDITATE. YOU CAN JOURNAL YOU CAN FIND A 00:21:30.240 --> 00:21:31.930 line:85% position:50% size:80% THERAPIST. 00:21:32.509 --> 00:21:35.619 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, THERE'S 1000 DIFFERENT THINGS. BUT WHATEVER YOU NEED 00:21:35.630 --> 00:21:38.319 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF YOU, YOU HAVE TO DO THAT EVERY DAY. 00:21:38.329 --> 00:21:41.039 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LIKE FOR ME, THE BEST VERSION OF ME HAS TO GET IN AND HAS TO 00:21:41.049 --> 00:21:45.049 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SWEAT EVERY SINGLE DAY. NEED TO SWEAT HAVE TO GO WORK OUT EVERY 00:21:45.059 --> 00:21:48.910 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DAY. THE SOMETHING SOMETHING ACTIVE. IF NOT. I JUST FEEL 00:21:48.920 --> 00:21:53.609 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BLAH MAKE MANY THINK 25 YEARS OF DOING SOMETHING EVERY SINGLE 00:21:53.619 --> 00:21:56.799 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DAY, SOMETHING NONSTOP. LIKE IT'S A PART OF WHO I AM. 00:21:56.809 --> 00:22:00.240 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% RIGHT. LIKE MY AD IS NEVER GOING TO GO LIKE IT'S JUST I'M 00:22:00.250 --> 00:22:04.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ALWAYS ON THE GO. I'M ALWAYS MOVING. NEVER STOP. SO, YEAH, 00:22:04.269 --> 00:22:07.660 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I HAVE TO WORK OUT. I JOURNAL AND DIFFICULT DAYS 00:22:09.349 --> 00:22:12.589 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OBVIOUSLY HAVE A THERAPIST LIVE THERAPIST AND ONLINE THERE FOR 00:22:12.599 --> 00:22:16.230 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% A SECOND. GO TO. BUT I THINK LIKE ANYTHING THAT ALLOWS YOU 00:22:16.240 --> 00:22:18.880 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF YOU, SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO DO. 00:22:18.890 --> 00:22:22.980 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW FOR ME, MY WIFE ALWAYS SAYS IF MY GLASSES AND FULL, 00:22:22.990 --> 00:22:25.799 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HOW AM I GOING TO FILL UP EVERYONE ELSE'S, RIGHT? SO 00:22:42.089 --> 00:22:45.029 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I WOULD SAY ONE REACHED OUT TO A LOVED ONE THAT YOU CAN TRUST, 00:22:46.910 --> 00:22:50.049 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, AND AND I WOULD SAY GET ALSO 00:22:50.650 --> 00:22:54.450 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ONE REACH OUT, SOMEBODY YOU CAN TRUST TO. I WOULD SAY YOU'RE 00:22:54.460 --> 00:22:54.990 line:85% position:50% size:80% NOT ALONE 00:22:55.750 --> 00:22:57.710 line:85% position:50% size:80% LIKE WITHOUT QUESTION. 00:22:58.269 --> 00:23:00.940 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, THERE ARE TIMES EVEN THOUGH I HAVE A ROLODEX OF 00:23:00.950 --> 00:23:03.799 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PEOPLE, I CAN REACH OUT TO THEIR TIMES WASHING LIKE A MALL 00:23:04.369 --> 00:23:05.740 line:85% position:50% size:80% STILL TO COME IN. 00:23:06.259 --> 00:23:07.500 line:85% position:50% size:80% IT'S THOSE DAYS. BUT 00:23:08.019 --> 00:23:10.450 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I STILL KNOW THAT MY CAR, I PICK UP THE PHONE. 00:23:11.180 --> 00:23:15.049 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHO CAN I CALL LIKE? JUST GO THROUGH AND MAKE A PHONE CALL. 00:23:16.769 --> 00:23:20.069 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I SAY BRING FOR YOU SAID PEOPLE WATCHING. 00:23:23.809 --> 00:23:26.289 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YEAH, I MEAN, I HONESTLY, I THINK, YOU KNOW, BESIDES 00:23:26.299 --> 00:23:28.450 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% REACHING OUT SOMEBODY'S LOVE, I THINK IT'S REALLY JUST 00:23:29.130 --> 00:23:30.150 line:85% position:50% size:80% IT'S BEING YOURSELF 00:23:31.390 --> 00:23:33.700 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MY BRACELETS, BOTH OF THESE SAY BE YOU. 00:23:33.930 --> 00:23:38.150 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'M ONE OF THOSE KIND OF FADED. SO MY FRIEND, MAYBE ANOTHER 00:23:38.160 --> 00:23:42.380 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ONE. SO I WEAR THESE EVERY DAY BECAUSE THAT'S THAT'S WHO I AM. 00:23:42.789 --> 00:23:44.210 line:85% position:50% size:80% IF I'M STRUGGLING 00:23:46.039 --> 00:23:49.069 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND SOMETIMES I'LL BE UP, SOMETIMES I'LL BE DOWN. BUT 00:23:49.079 --> 00:23:53.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT'S JUST WHAT'S GOING ON THAT DAY, RIGHT? SO BUT I THINK THE 00:23:53.269 --> 00:23:56.970 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BEST PIECE OF ADVICE IS JUST BE YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF. THERE'S NO 00:23:56.980 --> 00:24:00.130 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OTHER WAY WE SHOULD BE WERE ALSO SPECIAL IN OUR OWN WAY IS 00:24:00.140 --> 00:24:03.680 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND WE ALL OFFER SOMETHING SPECIAL TO THIS WORLD. SO WE'RE 00:24:03.690 --> 00:24:07.150 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TRYING TO BE SOMEBODY DIFFICULT THEN FOR ME FOR TRYING TO BE 00:24:07.160 --> 00:24:08.039 line:85% position:50% size:80% SOMEBODY DIFFERENT. 00:24:09.359 --> 00:24:10.500 line:85% position:50% size:80% WE'RE NOT DOING OUR 00:24:10.890 --> 00:24:13.390 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OUR BEST SELVES. WHO'S BEEN WITH THE 00:24:14.019 --> 00:24:15.660 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IF YOU'RE TRYING TO BE SOMEBODY DIFFERENT, THEN 00:24:16.240 --> 00:24:18.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHAT ARE WE REALLY DOING EVERY DAY LIKE YOU? YOU'RE CHEATING 00:24:18.970 --> 00:24:19.470 line:85% position:50% size:80% AT LIFE 00:24:20.769 --> 00:24:23.140 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FOR ME AGAIN, LIKE, YES, I STRUGGLE WITH DEPRESSION AND 00:24:23.150 --> 00:24:25.630 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ANXIETY. THAT'S WHO I AM, RIGHT. LIKE IT'S NOT GOING TO 00:24:25.640 --> 00:24:30.099 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% GO. SO I'M OWNING IT AND I'M MOVING ON, RIGHT? LIKE I HAVE 00:24:30.109 --> 00:24:33.079 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CERTAIN THINGS THAT I TRY TO DO TO CHANGE OR TO HELP OR DO THIS 00:24:33.089 --> 00:24:33.980 line:85% position:50% size:80% OR THAT. BUT 00:24:34.640 --> 00:24:37.490 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% 2, I AM NOT CHANGING IT. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO TEND TO BE 00:24:37.500 --> 00:24:38.130 line:85% position:50% size:80% SOMETHING DIFFERENT. 00:24:54.730 --> 00:24:55.359 line:85% position:50% size:80% HONESTLY, 00:24:56.779 --> 00:24:59.769 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'M LUCKY HONESTLY, LIKE THIS IS SOMETHING THE 00:25:01.029 --> 00:25:03.809 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AS YOU'VE HEARD AND SEEN LIKE I STRUGGLE WITH AND I KNOW THERE 00:25:03.819 --> 00:25:06.039 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE STRUGGLING WITH THE SAME EXACT THING. 00:25:06.049 --> 00:25:09.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND FOR ME, I I JUST WANT TO HELP PEOPLE BECAUSE I KNOW 00:25:09.069 --> 00:25:11.089 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EXACTLY WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO NOT WANT TO BE ALIVE. 00:25:11.690 --> 00:25:14.970 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO FEEL LIKE NO ONE LOVES YOU 00:25:14.980 --> 00:25:16.339 line:85% position:50% size:80% AND NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU AND 00:25:16.970 --> 00:25:19.940 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHATEVER ELSE YOU WANT TO SAY, RIGHT? SO FOR ME, I JUST 00:25:20.759 --> 00:25:21.950 line:85% position:50% size:80% ON TO GET SOMEBODY A CHANCE. 00:25:41.809 --> 00:25:42.720 line:85% position:50% size:80% THERE NEEDS TO BE MORE. 00:25:47.990 --> 00:25:51.730 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE ABC ORGANIZATIONS HAVE DONE SOME STEPS IN THE RIGHT 00:25:51.740 --> 00:25:53.769 line:85% position:50% size:80% DIRECTION TO GET 00:25:54.839 --> 00:25:57.529 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HELPING CARE THAT US AS ATHLETES NEED. 00:25:58.549 --> 00:26:00.759 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT THEY'RE NOT DOING EVERYTHING THEY CAN AND THAT 00:26:00.769 --> 00:26:01.309 line:85% position:50% size:80% UPSETS ME. 00:26:12.039 --> 00:26:14.839 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I WANT TO SEE I WANT I WANT TO SEE THEM PUT THE ATHLETES 00:26:14.849 --> 00:26:15.279 line:85% position:50% size:80% FIRST. 00:26:18.319 --> 00:26:19.009 line:85% position:50% size:80% NOTHING ELSE TO SAY 00:26:25.049 --> 00:26:25.859 line:85% position:50% size:80% IT'S EVERYTHING 00:26:26.390 --> 00:26:27.569 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE ATHLETES NEED TO BE. FIRST. 00:26:30.880 --> 00:26:34.319 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I WALKED INTO TRAINING ROOMS AT THE U.S. O C 00:26:35.029 --> 00:26:36.359 line:85% position:50% size:80% AND COULDN'T GET CARE 00:26:37.569 --> 00:26:40.440 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE 6 MONTHS BEFORE THE 2008 OLYMPIC GAMES. 00:26:42.349 --> 00:26:45.279 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT'S NOT ANYTHING I COULDN'T GET ACCESS. NO, NO PHYSICAL 00:26:45.289 --> 00:26:46.519 line:85% position:50% size:80% TRAINER WOULD HELP ME 00:26:48.180 --> 00:26:49.339 line:85% position:50% size:80% IF THAT'S HAPPENING WITH ME. 00:26:49.910 --> 00:26:50.990 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT'S HAPPENING WITH OTHERS, TOO. 00:26:52.369 --> 00:26:54.920 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE THESE ATHLETES THAT ARE REPRESENTING 00:26:54.930 --> 00:26:55.529 line:85% position:50% size:80% OUR COUNTRY 00:26:56.299 --> 00:26:57.740 line:85% position:50% size:80% AND PUT THE ATHLETES FIRST. 00:27:08.619 --> 00:27:09.869 line:85% position:50% size:80% NOTHING THAT CAN BE RECORDED. 00:27:11.150 --> 00:27:13.990 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THERE'S A LOT OF THAT. THERE'S THERE'S JUST A LOT OF EMOTIONS 00:27:14.000 --> 00:27:15.500 line:85% position:50% size:80% THERE. 00:27:16.380 --> 00:27:20.150 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THERE'S SO MUCH PASSION FOR ME. AND I WANT I WANT WHAT'S RIGHT, 00:27:20.160 --> 00:27:25.690 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PERIOD. THAT'S THAT'S ALL AND I WON'T STOP UNTIL EVERYTHING IS 00:27:25.700 --> 00:27:27.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DONE THAT I THINK NEEDS TO BE DONE 00:27:39.839 --> 00:27:41.240 line:85% position:50% size:80% DISCUSSION. I THINK 00:27:42.740 --> 00:27:46.190 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I THINK YOU'RE SEEING A SHIFT FROM IT. I THINK YOU'RE SEEING 00:27:46.200 --> 00:27:49.019 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% A SHIFT IN JUST A POLITICAL FRONT WITH SPEAKING OUT ABOUT 00:27:49.029 --> 00:27:51.950 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MENTAL HEALTH, RIGHT. LIKE IF YOU GO 10 YEARS BACK, YOU'RE 00:27:51.960 --> 00:27:54.160 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% NEVER GOING TO SEE A FRONT HEADLINE TALKING ABOUT MENTAL 00:27:54.170 --> 00:27:54.609 line:85% position:50% size:80% HEALTH. 00:27:55.150 --> 00:27:58.160 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% NOW IT'S A CRISIS TO WRITE. SO IT'S SOMETHING THAT IS THAT 00:27:58.170 --> 00:28:00.890 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT HAS OBVIOUSLY GOTTEN PEOPLE'S ATTENTION. THAT'S 00:28:00.900 --> 00:28:03.769 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SOMETHING WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT. SO WE HAVE TO CONTINUE 00:28:03.779 --> 00:28:06.450 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FURTHER IN THIS CONVERSATION. AND IF WE DON'T, THEN WE'RE 00:28:06.460 --> 00:28:08.880 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% GOING TO END UP DOING THE SAME EXACT THING REPEATING HISTORY 00:28:08.890 --> 00:28:09.650 line:85% position:50% size:80% LIKE WE'VE ALWAYS DONE. 00:28:27.730 --> 00:28:28.700 line:85% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, 00:28:29.529 --> 00:28:33.140 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MY HOUSE. AND AND YOU KNOW, IF THE KIDS, NICOLE AND I ARE VERY 00:28:33.150 --> 00:28:36.240 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OPEN. SO WE WE TALK ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING AROUND 00:28:36.250 --> 00:28:39.809 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OUR KIDS. YOU KNOW, AGAIN, IT'S BACK TO THAT WORD CONTROL. 00:28:39.819 --> 00:28:43.750 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHAT CAN YOU CONTROL? YOU KNOW, FOR ME WHEN I'M AROUND POSTING 00:28:43.759 --> 00:28:47.329 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ON SOCIAL MEDIA, I TRY NOT TO READ INTO HIS COMMENTS, YOU 00:28:47.339 --> 00:28:49.660 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOW, BECAUSE SOME OF THE COMMENTS CAN BE BRUTAL. I'VE 00:28:49.670 --> 00:28:53.819 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAD DEATH THREATS TOWARDS MY FAMILY. MY KIDS LIKE REALLY 00:28:53.829 --> 00:28:58.680 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT'S RIDICULOUS. AND IT'S CRAZY TO SEE. BUT AGAIN, WHAT CAN YOU 00:28:58.690 --> 00:29:02.279 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CONTROL? AND FOR ME, YOU KNOW, WHEN I'M ON SOCIAL MEDIA, 00:29:02.289 --> 00:29:05.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I TRY TO SHOW YOU WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH MY LIFE, WHETHER 00:29:05.269 --> 00:29:08.640 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT'S GOOD OR BAD. THAT'S WHY THAT'S HOW I ALWAYS USE SOCIAL 00:29:08.650 --> 00:29:11.130 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MEDIA. YOU'RE SEEING THE BEST VERSION OF WHO I AM AND THE 00:29:11.140 --> 00:29:14.000 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% REAL VERSION OF WHO I AM. THAT'S ALL ALWAYS BE ON SOCIAL 00:29:14.009 --> 00:29:14.160 line:85% position:50% size:80% MEDIA. 00:29:18.470 --> 00:29:21.150 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I'VE GONE THROUGH ENOUGH DEALING WITH IT THAT IT 00:29:21.160 --> 00:29:23.369 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DOESN'T. IT DOESN'T AFFECT ME. IT'S JUST 00:29:23.890 --> 00:29:26.589 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE. YOU CAN'T CONTROL WHAT THEY DO OR WHAT 00:29:26.599 --> 00:29:26.900 line:85% position:50% size:80% THEY SAY 00:29:48.779 --> 00:29:51.750 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FOR SURE. I MEAN, I THINK FROM AN ATHLETE STANDPOINT, YOU 00:29:51.759 --> 00:29:54.319 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOW, WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT WHAT MENTAL HEALTH IS REALLY DONE IN 00:29:54.329 --> 00:29:57.660 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE LAST 5 YEARS, 6 YEARS, 8 YEARS, IT'S INCREDIBLE, RIGHT, 00:29:57.670 --> 00:30:01.680 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY USE THEIR THEIR VOICE AND BEEN ABLE 00:30:01.690 --> 00:30:04.690 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TO SHARE THEIR OWN STORY. SO, YEAH, I THINK IT'S AWESOME, 00:30:04.700 --> 00:30:07.319 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% RIGHT? I THINK WE NEED MORE OF IT, RIGHT? THAT'S THE ONLY ONE 00:30:07.329 --> 00:30:10.480 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% NORMALIZED, YOU KNOW, AND ALL OF OUR STORIES ARE DIFFERENT 00:30:10.490 --> 00:30:13.440 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YET. THEY'RE SIMILAR IN A LOT OF DIFFERENT WAYS. SO, YOU 00:30:13.450 --> 00:30:16.339 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOW, WHEN YOU HAVE WHEN YOU HAD NAOMI OSAKA OPEN UP ON HER 00:30:16.349 --> 00:30:19.420 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OWN PLATFORM TO ME, I THOUGHT THAT WAS SO POWERFUL, RIGHT? 00:30:19.430 --> 00:30:22.299 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SHE WAS ABLE TO TO FORMULATE EXACTLY WHAT SHE WAS GOING 00:30:22.309 --> 00:30:25.150 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THROUGH. PUTIN PUTTING INTO WORDS, RIDE, SHARING THAT WITH 00:30:25.160 --> 00:30:30.240 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EVERYBODY WHO WANTS TO SEE AND IT'S NOT EASY TO DO. YOU KNOW, 00:30:30.250 --> 00:30:31.589 line:85% position:50% size:80% YOU SEE SIMONE BILES 00:30:32.349 --> 00:30:35.359 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SHOWED UP AT THE THE WORST POSSIBLE MOMENT, RIGHT? YOU 00:30:35.369 --> 00:30:37.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% KNOW, I THINK THAT JUST SHOWS YOU THAT MENTAL HEALTH 00:30:38.329 --> 00:30:41.619 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CAN COME AND GO AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT. SO IF YOU'RE NOT FULLY 00:30:41.630 --> 00:30:44.740 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PREPARED FOR IT, YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN, RIGHT? 00:30:44.750 --> 00:30:47.200 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO IT'S PREPARATION IS SO IMPORTANT THIS MOMENT. 00:30:47.509 --> 00:30:51.829 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT AGAIN, LIKE I THINK IT'S SO IMPORTANT AND POWERFUL WHEN YOU 00:30:51.839 --> 00:30:54.859 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAVE THESE ATHLETES, THE CELEBRITIES, POLITICAL FIGURES, 00:30:54.869 --> 00:30:58.019 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHOEVER MIGHT BE STAND UP AND TALK ABOUT THEIR OWN PERSONAL 00:30:58.029 --> 00:30:58.539 line:85% position:50% size:80% STRUGGLES 00:30:59.069 --> 00:31:01.799 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BECAUSE IF THEY DO THAT, THEN THE PEOPLE WORKING AROUND THEM, 00:31:01.809 --> 00:31:04.359 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN THEIR LIVES SEE IT AS SOMETHING 00:31:04.369 --> 00:31:07.029 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% NORMAL AND THEY CAN DROP THEIR SHOULDERS AND THEY CAN TALK 00:31:07.039 --> 00:31:10.329 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ABOUT IT, TOO. BUT UNTIL THAT HAPPENS, THE SUICIDE RATE IS 00:31:10.339 --> 00:31:11.349 line:85% position:50% size:80% GOING TO CONTINUE TO CLIMB 00:31:21.859 --> 00:31:23.440 line:85% position:50% size:80% OF HOW YOU HEAR IT, TOO. 00:31:23.970 --> 00:31:27.329 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% >> WHY IS THAT IMPORTANT AND HOW DO YOU DO THAT? 00:31:28.549 --> 00:31:29.450 line:85% position:50% size:80% 5 A? 00:31:30.819 --> 00:31:32.700 line:85% position:50% size:80% >> YEAH. YOU KNOW, I MEAN 00:31:33.150 --> 00:31:34.900 line:85% position:50% size:80% FOR ME GROWING UP, I. 00:31:36.390 --> 00:31:40.089 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% >> MY DAD WAS NEVER. ALL RIGHT. SO FOR ME LIKE I WANT SOMETHING 00:31:40.099 --> 00:31:42.480 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% DIFFERENT IN MY HOUSEHOLD. SO, YOU KNOW, DINNER IS VERY 00:31:42.490 --> 00:31:45.829 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IMPORTANT. AND AND, YOU KNOW, OUR SCHEDULE AND ALL THIS STUFF 00:31:45.839 --> 00:31:48.069 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND LIKE JUST TRYING TO TEACH KIDS LITTLE SMALL, IMPORTANT 00:31:48.079 --> 00:31:50.309 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TOOLS THAT ARE GOING TO HELP THEM GO THROUGH LIFE. RIGHT. 00:31:50.490 --> 00:31:53.410 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND FOR ME, IT'S LIKE AS LONG AS I CAN JUST GIVE THEM 00:31:53.420 --> 00:31:55.930 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SOMETHING THEM, THEY'RE GOING TO BE THE BEST PERSON IN THEM, 00:31:55.940 --> 00:31:57.890 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% RIGHT? LIKE, I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER. 00:32:10.539 --> 00:32:11.779 line:85% position:50% size:80% BUT I THINK LAKE, 00:32:12.160 --> 00:32:15.140 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, YES, 100% LIKE MY BOYS, SHE MIGHT MOTIONS THIS. 00:32:15.150 --> 00:32:18.049 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU MY RAW EMOTIONS ALL THE TIME. BUT ALSO, I THINK YOU SEE 00:32:18.059 --> 00:32:22.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THE YOUNGER GENERATIONS ARE MORE OPEN AND MORE WILLING TO 00:32:22.269 --> 00:32:25.250 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SPEAK ABOUT WHAT THEY'RE GOING FOR. RIGHT. SO I THINK IT'S 00:32:25.259 --> 00:32:28.430 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SOMETHING THAT THAT THE OLDER GENERATIONS US AND OLDER SHOULD 00:32:28.440 --> 00:32:31.440 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% REALLY LEARN FROM, RIGHT, LIKE THERE'S NO FEAR THEY'RE OPENING 00:32:31.450 --> 00:32:35.839 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% UP AND BEING TO BE JUST WHO THEY ARE. SO I MEAN, I WAS ALL 00:32:35.849 --> 00:32:38.559 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ON WITH THIS AND JUST BY SAYING THAT, YOU KNOW, THIS MENTAL 00:32:38.569 --> 00:32:41.230 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HEALTH MONTH, I WANT EVERYBODY TO CHALLENGE THEMSELVES. 00:32:41.240 --> 00:32:43.740 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IF THEY'RE GOING THROUGH SOME KIND OF STRUGGLE, OPEN UP, 00:32:43.809 --> 00:32:46.740 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FIND SOMEBODY YOU CAN TALK TO RIGHT YOUR STUFF DOWN, WHATEVER 00:32:46.750 --> 00:32:49.660 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT IS, WHATEVER YOU'RE GOING THROUGH THAT YOU'RE FEELING IS 00:32:49.670 --> 00:32:51.059 line:85% position:50% size:80% DIFFICULT. STRUGGLE 00:32:51.609 --> 00:32:53.720 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% CAN'T HAPPEN. IF YOU CAN'T LIVE ANOTHER DAY, 00:32:54.329 --> 00:32:55.539 line:85% position:50% size:80% I'M CHALLENGING YOU 00:32:56.579 --> 00:33:00.000 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TO GET THOSE FEELINGS OUT OF YOUR BODY SOMEHOW RIGHT DOWN. 00:33:00.009 --> 00:33:01.750 line:85% position:50% size:80% TALK TO SOMEBODY, DO SOMETHING 00:33:02.619 --> 00:33:05.299 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND SEE HOW YOU FEEL GOOD FROM ONE HOME. AND THAT'S IT. 00:33:06.509 --> 00:33:08.990 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% 30 DAYS TO CREATE A HABIT. YOU DO IT FOR A MONTH. 00:33:09.500 --> 00:33:10.549 line:85% position:50% size:80% I WANT TO HEAR HOW PEOPLE FEEL 00:33:14.869 --> 00:33:15.789 line:85% position:50% size:80% SO 00:33:20.279 --> 00:33:20.980 line:85% position:50% size:80% SWEET. 00:33:34.680 --> 00:33:39.160 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, FOR ME, I STARTED THE FOUNDATION BACK IN 2008, 00:33:39.170 --> 00:33:42.289 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I WAS GIFTED, A MILLION DOLLAR BONUS WILL SPONSOR. AND 00:33:42.869 --> 00:33:45.460 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I INITIALLY WANTED TO TEACH THE IMPORTANCE OF WATER SAFETY AND 00:33:45.470 --> 00:33:48.609 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AND THAT THAT WAS IN FACT, THE ONLY REASON WHY 00:33:48.940 --> 00:33:51.339 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EVER STARTED SOMETHING. MY MOM JUST WANTED US TO BE WATER 00:33:51.349 --> 00:33:52.089 line:85% position:50% size:80% SAFE. SO, 00:33:52.480 --> 00:33:54.740 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, FOR ME, I LEARNED THAT DROWNING WAS THE SECOND 00:33:54.750 --> 00:33:57.119 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HIGHEST CAUSE OF DEATH FOR CHILDREN UNDER THE AGE OF 14. 00:33:57.130 --> 00:33:57.579 line:85% position:50% size:80% SO 00:33:58.039 --> 00:34:01.599 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% NOW BEING A DAD OF 4 BOYS THAT ALARMING. SO I WANTED TO TRY TO 00:34:01.609 --> 00:34:04.259 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IMPACT AS MANY PEOPLE AS I COULD JUST TO HAVE HIM BE SAFE, 00:34:04.269 --> 00:34:07.470 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ENJOY THE WATER. THAT IS SOMETHING THAT WE CALL LOVE AND 00:34:07.480 --> 00:34:11.739 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAVE A GOOD TIME. AND THEN WE TRANSITIONED AND ADDED A 00:34:11.750 --> 00:34:14.440 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SEPARATE COMPONENT OF MENTAL HEALTH. NOW BEING ABLE TO OPEN 00:34:14.449 --> 00:34:16.480 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% UP AND TEACH KIDS THE IMPORTANCE OF THE 8 THIS 00:34:16.489 --> 00:34:19.750 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MOTIONS, RIGHT, BEING ABLE TO JUST COMMUNICATE. I THINK 00:34:19.760 --> 00:34:23.090 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SOMETHING SO IMPORTANT AND BEING ABLE TO GIVE THEM A 00:34:23.099 --> 00:34:26.849 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% COUPLE TOOLS THAT THAT THEY'RE ABLE TO GO ON THIS JOURNEY 00:34:26.860 --> 00:34:30.250 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% TOGETHER, GOING THIS LIFELONG JOURNEY. YOU'VE OF CHALLENGING 00:34:30.260 --> 00:34:33.159 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LIFE, RIGHT, TRYING TO TRYING TO CONQUER LIFE. 00:34:44.519 --> 00:34:48.320 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SAME THING. CONTINUE ON TRYING TO TRYING TO 00:34:49.340 --> 00:34:50.980 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LOWER THE STIGMA OF MENTAL HEALTH. 00:34:52.429 --> 00:34:54.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, LOWER THE SUICIDE RATE, 00:34:56.760 --> 00:35:00.349 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BE A DAD. I DON'T KNOW. THERE ARE SOME GOALS THAT I HAVE. 00:35:00.360 --> 00:35:03.179 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT, YOU KNOW, I THINK EVERYTHING AROUND MENTAL HEALTH 00:35:03.190 --> 00:35:06.400 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IS IS REALLY WHAT KEEPS ME UP AT NIGHT AND GETS ME EXCITED TO 00:35:06.409 --> 00:35:08.980 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% GET OUT OF BED EVERY SINGLE DAY, RIGHT? LIKE IT'S THE SAME 00:35:08.989 --> 00:35:12.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EXACT THING THAT IT WAS NO SWIMMING. I THINK THESE THINGS 00:35:12.070 --> 00:35:16.079 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ARE ARE THE REASON FOR ME TO BE HERE, YOU KNOW, LIKE THERE'S SO 00:35:16.090 --> 00:35:18.940 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% MANY PEOPLE THAT THAT NEED HELP AND I WANT TO HELP AS MANY ON 00:35:18.949 --> 00:35:21.840 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THIS AND POSSIBLY CAN LIKE. THAT'S JUST NOT WHO I AM. 00:35:21.849 --> 00:35:22.610 line:85% position:50% size:80% THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO DO. 00:35:34.929 --> 00:35:38.289 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WELL, WITHOUT QUESTION THE YOU KNOW, THAT WAS SOMETHING THAT 00:35:38.300 --> 00:35:41.539 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IS AS A COMPETITOR. I ALWAYS SAW 2. I LIKE 00:35:42.840 --> 00:35:45.730 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EVERY 4 YEARS WE HAVE THE PRESIDENTIAL RACE, RIGHT, 00:35:45.739 --> 00:35:48.769 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LIKE AND IT'S ALWAYS KIND OF A CRAZY TIME. BUT, YOU KNOW, 00:35:48.780 --> 00:35:52.570 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I ALWAYS THINK THAT NO MATTER WHAT'S GOING ON, WHETHER IT'S 00:35:52.579 --> 00:35:56.059 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IN THE U.S. WE'RE ALL OVER THE GLOBE. THE OLYMPICS IS 00:35:56.070 --> 00:35:59.530 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SOMETHING THAT BRINGS EVERYBODY TOGETHER. YOU KNOW, THE SPIRIT 00:35:59.539 --> 00:36:03.420 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OF THE OLYMPIC GAMES. IT'S SO MAGICAL. AND FOR ME, IT'S IT'S 00:36:03.429 --> 00:36:06.469 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% IT'S JUST SOMETHING THAT I CAN'T IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT. 00:36:06.750 --> 00:36:10.010 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% YOU KNOW, THIS SUMMER IS GOING TO BE INCREDIBLE OPPORTUNITY TO 00:36:10.019 --> 00:36:11.670 line:85% position:50% size:80% TO HAVE PARIS REALLY SHOW. 00:36:12.300 --> 00:36:15.300 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT THAT'S IT IS ALL ABOUT RIGHTS AND THE ICONIC VENUES 00:36:15.309 --> 00:36:16.559 line:85% position:50% size:80% AND HE'S A MENU. 00:36:17.730 --> 00:36:21.070 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HIS ICONIC VENUES IN THESE AMAZING POOLS, VOLLEYBALL 00:36:21.079 --> 00:36:23.340 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% COURTS, WHATEVER IT MIGHT BE THAT YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE 00:36:23.820 --> 00:36:27.440 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% RIGHT. AND AND TO BE ABLE TO PLAY BEACH VOLLEYBALL UNDER THE 00:36:27.449 --> 00:36:30.409 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% EIFFEL TOWER, RIGHT? LIKE ALL OF THESE THINGS LIKE I JUST 00:36:30.420 --> 00:36:33.449 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAVE THESE LIKE JUST VISIONS OF MY HEAD OF THIS, THAT THIS THIS 00:36:33.460 --> 00:36:37.329 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SUMMER'S GAMES AND NOTHING THAT HAPPENS, YOU KNOW, FOR ME, 00:36:37.340 --> 00:36:39.949 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT'S THAT'S WHAT I FEEL AROUND OLYMPIC GAMES. AND I 00:36:39.960 --> 00:36:40.840 line:85% position:50% size:80% CAN'T WAIT TO GET THE PARENTS. 00:36:42.059 --> 00:36:46.820 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I MEAN, IT'S NOT OUR HOUSEHOLDS SPORTS HOUSEHOLD. SO NOW BEING 00:36:46.829 --> 00:36:49.570 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% ABLE TO SEE THE WORLD'S BEST COMPETE IS SOMETHING THAT 00:36:49.579 --> 00:36:50.230 line:85% position:50% size:80% ALWAYS EXCITING, 00:37:05.440 --> 00:37:09.139 line:85% position:50% size:80% HARD WORK, DEDICATION, PASSION, 00:37:10.070 --> 00:37:10.940 line:85% position:50% size:80% NEVER GIVING UP 00:37:11.610 --> 00:37:16.219 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SMALL THINGS. NOW THEY KIND OF HAVE AN IDEA OF WHO I AM NOW. 00:37:16.230 --> 00:37:18.380 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I THINK THIS OFF OF THEIR FRIENDS AND 00:37:18.579 --> 00:37:21.349 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% I HAD A KID, ONE OF MY SON, MY SON'S BRING 00:37:22.070 --> 00:37:26.679 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% A BOOK OF ME HOME FROM THE SCHOOL LIBRARY. SO, YOU KNOW, 00:37:26.690 --> 00:37:31.780 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% SO IT'S KIND OF FUNNY, BUT OUT OF OLD, MAYBE FEEL REALLY OLD. 00:37:32.289 --> 00:37:37.070 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% BUT, YOU KNOW, I THINK FOR ME IS AS LONG AS I CAN HELP THEM 00:37:37.079 --> 00:37:40.130 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% FIND SOMETHING THAT THEY CAN PUT EVERYTHING INTO AND JUST 00:37:40.139 --> 00:37:44.769 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% GIVE IT ALL. YOU KNOW, MY OLDEST SAID HE'S THE ONLY ONE. 00:37:44.780 --> 00:37:45.889 line:85% position:50% size:80% I'VE GOT AN ANSWER OUT OF. 00:37:46.349 --> 00:37:47.960 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HE SAID HE WANTS TO BE THE NEXT MESSI. 00:37:48.630 --> 00:37:52.380 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% THAT'S WHY THIS IS BECAUSE HE SCORES A LOT OF GOALS. I WAS 00:37:52.389 --> 00:37:55.659 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% LIKE, OKAY, OKAY. WE'VE GOT TO WORK IN OTHER THINGS BESIDES 00:37:55.670 --> 00:38:00.199 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% JUST SCORING GOALS. BUT BUT FOR ME, JUST JUST WATCHING A KID 00:38:00.210 --> 00:38:02.619 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% HAVE A DREAM AND CHASE IT RIGHT. LIKE, YOU KNOW, THAT'S 00:38:02.630 --> 00:38:05.210 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% WHAT I THINK OF JUST SOME KID FROM BALTIMORE WHO WASN'T 00:38:05.219 --> 00:38:08.760 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% AFRAID TO GO AFTER EVERYTHING YOU'VE DROPPED OF, YOU KNOW IT 00:38:09.110 --> 00:38:11.670 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% PEOPLE TELLING YOU THAT IT'S NOT POSSIBLE OR THE SIDE OF THE 00:38:11.679 --> 00:38:14.539 align:center line:79% position:50% size:80% OTHER. JUST NEVER GIVING UP ON SOMETHING YOU BELIEVE 00:38:15.039 --> 00:38:15.989 line:85% position:50% size:80% IS POSSIBLE. 00:38:18.260 --> 00:38:19.599 line:85% position:50% size:80% THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SURE.