1 00:00:14,859 --> 00:00:19,019 >> I'M EXCITED. YOU KNOW, FOR ME, I THINK GOING INTO THIS 2 00:00:19,030 --> 00:00:22,940 OLYMPICS, MY MY MENTAL STATE IS WAY DIFFERENT THAN IT WAS GOING 3 00:00:22,949 --> 00:00:24,070 INTO TOKYO, 4 00:00:24,559 --> 00:00:27,329 YOU KNOW, JUST BEING REMOVED FROM THE OLYMPICS IN TOKYO. 5 00:00:27,339 --> 00:00:29,000 I KIND OF WANTED TO GET BACK IN THERE 6 00:00:29,410 --> 00:00:33,179 THIS TIME AROUND. I'M I'M EXCITED. I'M EXCITED TO WATCH. 7 00:00:33,189 --> 00:00:37,159 I'M EXCITED TO CHEER. I'M EXCITED TO WATCH THIS. THIS 8 00:00:37,170 --> 00:00:39,890 THESE ATHLETES BE ABLE TO TRY TO ACCOMPLISH THEIR LIFETIME 9 00:00:39,899 --> 00:00:43,159 GOALS AND DREAMS. I LIKE WINNING A GOLD MEDAL IS LESS 10 00:00:43,170 --> 00:00:44,320 THAN ONE PERCENT OF ONE PERCENT 11 00:00:44,820 --> 00:00:47,799 RIGHT. SO TO BE ABLE TO HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY IS SO SPECIAL 12 00:00:48,240 --> 00:00:51,479 AND TO BE ABLE TO WATCH SOMEBODY AGAIN DO THAT. 13 00:00:52,210 --> 00:00:52,850 IT'S A COOL FEELING. 14 00:01:12,569 --> 00:01:15,049 I MEAN, RIGHT NOW THERE'S THERE'S NOTHING YOU CAN REALLY 15 00:01:15,060 --> 00:01:18,260 DO DIFFERENT TO PREPARE, RIGHT? LIKE THE LESS THAN 100 DAYS 16 00:01:18,269 --> 00:01:22,030 OUT. JUST DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DO IT? IT'S IT'S IT IS THE OLYMPIC 17 00:01:22,040 --> 00:01:23,340 GAMES SHORTS, 18 00:01:23,829 --> 00:01:28,079 THIS MASSIVE, MASSIVE SPORTING EVENT. BUT IT'S THE SAME THING 19 00:01:28,090 --> 00:01:30,530 YOU'VE DONE YOUR WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE, RIGHT? LIKE THE LIGHTS 20 00:01:30,540 --> 00:01:31,420 MIGHT BE BRIGHTER. 21 00:01:31,879 --> 00:01:34,980 BUT FOR US, THE POOLS, THE SAME TEMPERATURE, LANDLINES, THE 22 00:01:34,989 --> 00:01:37,480 SAME WITH THE PART WE'RE COMPETING AGAINST SAME PEOPLE 23 00:01:37,489 --> 00:01:40,150 WE'VE COMPETED AGAINST THE LAST HOW MANY YEARS, RIGHT? JUST GET 24 00:01:40,159 --> 00:01:44,790 UP AND BE YOU, YOU KNOW, SAY FOR THE AMERICAN TEAM. I WILL 25 00:01:44,799 --> 00:01:48,170 BE OVER THERE. BUT I KNOW THEY WILL HAVE A COUNTRY FILLED WITH 26 00:01:48,180 --> 00:01:51,900 PEOPLE SCREAMING THEIR HEARTS OUT. I'M HOPING WE TAKE AS MANY 27 00:01:51,909 --> 00:01:55,280 MEDALS AS WE CAN. AND AND OUR ATHLETES REPRESENT OUR COUNTRY 28 00:01:55,290 --> 00:01:56,109 THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE. 29 00:02:04,109 --> 00:02:06,859 IT'S YEAH, IT'S I THINK IT'S A LITTLE DIFFERENT NOW. IT IS FOR 30 00:02:06,870 --> 00:02:09,500 ME NOW GOING INTO THIS OLYMPICS. I THINK 31 00:02:10,449 --> 00:02:15,860 I'M OK WITH EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED IN THE PAST AND I'M 32 00:02:15,870 --> 00:02:18,729 READY TO KIND OF JUST MOVE ON FROM FROM MY SWIMMING CAREER. 33 00:02:18,770 --> 00:02:21,849 YOU KNOW, I THINK, AGAIN, LIKE, YOU KNOW, HAVING THE CHANCE TO 34 00:02:21,860 --> 00:02:23,879 BE IN THE STANDS IS WAY DIFFERENT THAN BEING ON THE 35 00:02:23,889 --> 00:02:26,860 POOL DECK. YOU KNOW, AND IN TOKYO, I WANTED TO BE DOWN 36 00:02:26,870 --> 00:02:28,180 THERE. I JUST 37 00:02:28,599 --> 00:02:32,710 I MISSED JUST THAT FEELING OF OF WALKING ON THE POOL DECK AND 38 00:02:32,719 --> 00:02:35,490 WEARING THE STARS AND STRIPES AND HEARING THE NATIONAL ANTHEM 39 00:02:35,500 --> 00:02:38,550 PLAYED LIKE ALL OF THOSE THINGS ARE MEMORIES THAT I HAVE EVER 40 00:02:38,560 --> 00:02:42,719 I'M BUT I'M YOU KNOW, AGAIN, LOOKING FORWARD TO BEING ON THE 41 00:02:42,729 --> 00:02:47,120 OTHER SIDE, BEING ABLE TO COMMENTATE BEING ABLE TO WATCH. 42 00:02:47,129 --> 00:02:50,310 AND HOPEFULLY I DO GET SOME TIDBITS ON ON WHAT I SEE 43 00:02:50,319 --> 00:02:51,129 THROUGHOUT THE OLYMPICS. 44 00:02:54,400 --> 00:02:55,090 CHARLIE 45 00:03:03,219 --> 00:03:09,139 KNOW, JUST I MEAN, IT'S EASIEST WAY TO SAID JUST BECAUSE NOW 46 00:03:09,150 --> 00:03:12,150 WITH 4 KIDS AND AND HONESTLY LOOKING BACK THROUGHOUT MY 47 00:03:12,159 --> 00:03:13,909 CAREER, THERE'S NOTHING ELSE TO DO. 48 00:03:14,539 --> 00:03:17,960 AND AND, YOU KNOW, THERE'S NO PASSION INSIDE HERE OF, YOU 49 00:03:17,969 --> 00:03:20,830 KNOW, THAT'S BURNING TO GET ME OUT OF BED TO DO ONE MORE TIME. 50 00:03:21,189 --> 00:03:25,469 AND I KNOW WHAT MY OLD AGE OLD AGE OF UP TO 39 THIS YEAR. 51 00:03:25,830 --> 00:03:29,280 IT IT WILL TAKE 5 YEARS FOR ME REALLY GET BACK. YOU KNOW, 52 00:03:29,289 --> 00:03:31,990 I THINK THE WHOLE PROCESS OF PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY 53 00:03:32,000 --> 00:03:35,460 PREPARING FOR THE OLYMPIC GAMES IS CHALLENGING. SO FOR ME TO BE 54 00:03:35,469 --> 00:03:38,300 ABLE TO GIVE MYSELF THE BEST CHANCE TO BE ABLE TO PERFORM, 55 00:03:38,310 --> 00:03:39,460 HOW I WOULD WANT TO 56 00:03:39,969 --> 00:03:41,009 IT WOULD TAKE 5 YEARS. 57 00:03:43,389 --> 00:03:45,259 THERE'S NOTHING INSIDE OF ME THAT WANTS TO COME BACK, 58 00:03:45,270 --> 00:03:45,449 RIGHT? 59 00:03:47,490 --> 00:03:50,500 I'VE DONE IT ONCE. I'M NOT NOT GOING DOWN THAT WAY. 60 00:04:10,620 --> 00:04:14,280 OBVIOUSLY I HAVE MY DAY IS LIKE EVERYONE DOES RIGHT. WE GO 61 00:04:14,289 --> 00:04:15,960 THROUGH UPS AND DOWNS AND THAT'S JUST LIFE. 62 00:04:17,220 --> 00:04:20,370 I FEEL LIKE I HAVE MORE TOOLS NOW TO PREPARE ME THROUGH THE 63 00:04:20,970 --> 00:04:24,160 THE BUMPS OF THE ROLLER COASTERS LIKE I I CALL THEM 64 00:04:24,170 --> 00:04:28,329 THAT I GO THROUGH MY LIFE. AND YEAH, I'M ENJOYING RIGHT, 65 00:04:28,339 --> 00:04:30,550 LIKE, YOU KNOW, BEING RETIRED AGAIN AND AND 66 00:04:31,040 --> 00:04:33,100 BEING ABLE TO TALK ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH, WHICH IS SOMETHING 67 00:04:33,110 --> 00:04:35,759 THAT, YOU KNOW, PERSONALLY, I STRUGGLE WITH ALMOST EVERY 68 00:04:35,769 --> 00:04:38,660 SINGLE DAY. AND AND, YOU KNOW, DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY AREN'T 69 00:04:38,670 --> 00:04:41,860 JUST GOING TO DISAPPEAR, RIGHT? THESE ARE THINGS THAT I HAVE TO 70 00:04:41,870 --> 00:04:44,740 ADAPT AND I HAVE ADOPTED THROUGHOUT MY LIFE AND THEY ARE 71 00:04:44,750 --> 00:04:47,699 PART OF MY LIFE ALWAYS GOING TO BE A PART OF MY LIFE. SO IT'S 72 00:04:47,709 --> 00:04:49,970 FINDING THE BEST WAY EVERY SINGLE DAY TO BE THE BEST 73 00:04:49,980 --> 00:04:50,649 VERSION OF ME. 74 00:04:57,399 --> 00:04:59,709 YEAH, I MEAN, THERE ARE TIMES WHEN THEY'RE, YOU KNOW, 10 DAY 75 00:04:59,720 --> 00:05:03,540 SPELLS WHERE EVERY DAY IS A STRUGGLE. BUT FOR ME, IT'S WHAT 76 00:05:03,550 --> 00:05:06,029 CAN I CONTROL IN THAT MOMENT, RIGHT? YOU KNOW, LIKE, OKAY, 77 00:05:06,040 --> 00:05:07,810 I'M NOT FEELING THE BEST. 78 00:05:08,560 --> 00:05:12,800 HOW CAN I GET TO SOME LEVEL WHERE I CAN BE A GOOD DAD? 79 00:05:12,810 --> 00:05:16,129 I CAN BE A GOOD HUSBAND. I CAN BE A GOOD FRIEND. YOU 80 00:05:16,139 --> 00:05:19,600 KNOW, LIKE NOT JUST SIT IN A CORNER LIKE I FEEL AND CURL UP 81 00:05:19,610 --> 00:05:23,339 INTO A BALL. RIGHT? LIKE FOR ME, I GUESS I FOUND WAYS TO 82 00:05:23,350 --> 00:05:27,829 KIND OF GET MYSELF OUT OF THAT ZONE. YOU CAN TURN THE CHANNEL 83 00:05:27,839 --> 00:05:30,519 ON THE TV AND YOUR HEAD. YOUR BRAIN LIKE THINK ABOUT 84 00:05:30,529 --> 00:05:32,569 SOMETHING DIFFERENT, RIGHT? TURN THE DENTIST FOR THE 85 00:05:32,579 --> 00:05:35,120 BRIGHTNESS UP OR DOWN. RIGHT. SO DIFFERENT WAYS TO THINK 86 00:05:35,129 --> 00:05:38,230 ABOUT IT FOR ME. I JUMP IN A COLD PLUNGE IN THE MORNING. 87 00:05:38,240 --> 00:05:41,019 I FOR ME THE CHILLY GO TO SOMETHING THAT I GET IN EVERY 88 00:05:41,029 --> 00:05:44,810 SINGLE DAY. NO MATTER WHAT. LIKE A SHOOTING LAST NIGHT FOR 89 00:05:44,819 --> 00:05:47,870 A FOR A SPONSOR THIS MORNING. THE KIDS ARE OUT THERE UP AT 90 00:05:47,879 --> 00:05:51,519 5.30, ON THE MORNING. I HAD A BREAKFAST GOING TO PUT OUT THE 91 00:05:51,529 --> 00:05:52,189 DOOR SO 92 00:05:52,839 --> 00:05:55,800 I HAVE TO BE UP AND AT THE READY, THAT'S SOMETHING FOR ME. 93 00:05:55,810 --> 00:05:59,170 THAT ALLOWS ME TO BE IN THE MOMENT, RIGHT? SO THE SELF CARE 94 00:05:59,180 --> 00:06:02,930 THAT I DO FOR MYSELF EVERY SINGLE DAY, ALLOW ME TO BE ME 95 00:06:02,939 --> 00:06:04,290 WHEN I DON'T ALWAYS WANT TO BE 96 00:06:04,779 --> 00:06:08,040 RIGHT. SO YEAH, THERE ARE DAYS WHERE I DO WANT TO CURL UP. 97 00:06:08,050 --> 00:06:09,459 I WANT TO JUST HIDE, BUT 98 00:06:10,189 --> 00:06:13,069 I HAVE TO BE SO MUCH DIFFERENT NOT TO BE SO MUCH SOMEBODY 99 00:06:13,079 --> 00:06:15,379 DIFFERENT BETTER THAN THAT. AND I KNOW I CAN YOU KNOW, 100 00:06:15,389 --> 00:06:18,220 AGAIN THROUGH THE WORK THAT I'VE DONE THE PROCESS OF 101 00:06:18,230 --> 00:06:21,180 FINDING MORE ABOUT ME AND LEARNING WHY I WORK EVERY 102 00:06:21,189 --> 00:06:22,220 SINGLE WAY, THE WEB, EVERY 103 00:06:22,870 --> 00:06:26,819 WHY WORK EVERY SINGLE DAY, THE WAY THAT I DO, IT WAS A PROCESS 104 00:06:26,829 --> 00:06:27,750 THAT WAS HARD, BUT 105 00:06:28,139 --> 00:06:31,110 I'M BETTER NOW, RIGHT? YOU KNOW, LIKE FOR ME THROUGHOUT MY 106 00:06:31,120 --> 00:06:34,370 CAREER, I LOOKED AT MYSELF AS A SWIMMER IN AN ATHLETE. NOW I 107 00:06:34,379 --> 00:06:36,839 CAN LOOK IN THE MIRROR AND SEE A PERSON. SOME OF THAT HAS 108 00:06:36,850 --> 00:06:41,250 FEELINGS, EMOTIONS. SO YEAH, THAT ONE DAY AT A TIME, YOU 109 00:06:41,259 --> 00:06:44,370 KNOW, LIKE AGAIN, I'M NOT TRYING OUT A FUTURE TRIP. 110 00:06:44,379 --> 00:06:47,649 I TRY NOT TO PLAY IN THE PAST. YOU KNOW, IF I AM PLAYING IN 111 00:06:47,660 --> 00:06:50,439 THE PAST, I'M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT WHY I'M GOING THROUGH MY 112 00:06:50,449 --> 00:06:54,569 UPS AND DOWNS. SO FOR ME I JOURNAL A TON. I CAN GO BACK 113 00:06:54,579 --> 00:06:58,930 AND SEE WHY HAD THIS DAY. WHY HAVE THAT? SO TALK SO MUCH 114 00:06:58,939 --> 00:07:03,370 IS TIME TO STOP THE U.S. 115 00:07:10,759 --> 00:07:11,329 TRUMP, ISN'T IT? 116 00:07:19,139 --> 00:07:24,810 I WOULD SAY PROBABLY 2004, 2004 WAS MY FIRST TASTE OF 117 00:07:24,819 --> 00:07:28,149 POST-OLYMPIC DEPRESSION. YOU KNOW, COMING OFF SUCH A 118 00:07:28,160 --> 00:07:30,949 HIGH. IT'S BASICALLY YOU GET TO AND I THINK THE EDGE OF THE 119 00:07:30,959 --> 00:07:32,560 CLIFF NEAR LIKE COOL. NOW, 120 00:07:33,410 --> 00:07:35,730 I GUESS WE'LL WAIT 4 MORE YEARS. HOW THE CHANCE TO DO IT 121 00:07:35,740 --> 00:07:39,420 AGAIN, RIGHT? SO AND FOR THOSE WHO DON'T HAVE A SUCCESSFUL 122 00:07:39,430 --> 00:07:42,110 OLYMPICS, THOSE 4 YEARS CAN FEEL LIKE AN ABSOLUTELY TURN A 123 00:07:42,120 --> 00:07:42,550 T. 124 00:07:42,850 --> 00:07:48,670 SO FOR ME, 2004 IS MY FIRST 2008 WAS MY SECOND TASTE OF 125 00:07:48,680 --> 00:07:52,899 POST OLYMPIC DEPRESSION BECAUSE COMING OFF OF THAT HIGH AFTER 126 00:07:52,910 --> 00:07:55,589 DOING SOMETHING HE SET UP LIKE YOU SET OUT TO DO YOUR WHOLE 127 00:07:55,600 --> 00:07:56,300 ENTIRE LIFE. 128 00:07:56,769 --> 00:07:59,579 I LIKE MY MY GOAL IS TO DO SOMETHING NO ONE ELSE HAS EVER 129 00:07:59,589 --> 00:08:00,480 DONE BEFORE. 130 00:08:01,180 --> 00:08:03,779 I DID IT BY THE AGE OF 1920, YEARS OLD. 131 00:08:07,259 --> 00:08:10,439 SORRY. 23 YEARS OLD. I WAS 23 YEARS. 23. SO 132 00:08:15,569 --> 00:08:17,750 YEAH, I'M NOT SURE YET. 133 00:08:21,129 --> 00:08:23,290 I THINK AT THAT POINT, YOU KNOW, LIKE 134 00:08:23,899 --> 00:08:26,610 ALSO AS A MALE ATHLETE, YOU KNOW, LIKE I CAN TELL SOMETHING 135 00:08:26,620 --> 00:08:28,180 WAS OFF. 136 00:08:28,709 --> 00:08:31,589 BUT I THINK I SAW IT AS A SIGN OF WEAKNESS. AND IF I SHARED 137 00:08:31,600 --> 00:08:34,669 ANYTHING ABOUT IT, THEN IT WOULD GIVE MY COMPETITORS AND 138 00:08:34,679 --> 00:08:37,809 EDGE. AND I'M NOT TRYING TO DO THAT, RIGHT? LIKE I DON'T WANT 139 00:08:37,820 --> 00:08:40,059 TO GET MY COMPETITORS AND I'M TRYING TO BE BETTER THAN 140 00:08:40,070 --> 00:08:42,250 ANYBODY PERIOD HAS EVER BEEN. 141 00:08:42,759 --> 00:08:45,879 SO FOR ME, I LOOKED AT IT AS WEAKNESS. SO FOR ME, I HAD TO 142 00:08:45,889 --> 00:08:46,769 LEARN THAT 143 00:08:47,149 --> 00:08:48,559 VULNERABILITY IS A GOOD THING. 144 00:08:50,190 --> 00:08:53,470 IT WAS SCARY AT FIRST. BUT I LEARNED THAT VULNERABILITY JUST 145 00:08:53,480 --> 00:08:54,289 MEANS CHANGE. 146 00:08:54,940 --> 00:08:56,309 AND FOR ME, IT WAS A GREAT CHANGE. 147 00:09:11,830 --> 00:09:15,309 THE OWNER OF A OWN RECORDS NOW. BUT I THINK 148 00:09:15,669 --> 00:09:18,759 TO THAT POINT, I THINK I PUT PRESSURE ON MYSELF THAT NO 149 00:09:18,769 --> 00:09:22,820 OTHER HUMAN ON THE PLANET POSSIBLY COULD BECAUSE I WANTED 150 00:09:22,830 --> 00:09:27,399 TO DO SOMETHING AGAIN. NO ONE HAS EVER DONE. AND SO CORRECT. 151 00:09:27,409 --> 00:09:30,940 BUT FOR ME, I I HAD TO APPROACH IT LIKE NO ONE ELSE HAS. 152 00:09:31,210 --> 00:09:34,210 THERE'S NO BLUEPRINT. ANYTHING THAT I DID RIGHT WAS ALL TRIAL 153 00:09:34,220 --> 00:09:37,929 AND ERROR. SO I HAD TO PLAY WITH CERTAIN THINGS. AND IF I 154 00:09:37,940 --> 00:09:40,200 OPEN UP, MAYBE WOULD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT IF IT WOULD BE 155 00:09:40,210 --> 00:09:42,379 BETTER, MAYBE, BUT MAYBE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN WORSE. 156 00:09:43,389 --> 00:09:44,549 I THINK WHEN I YOU KNOW, 157 00:09:45,169 --> 00:09:48,429 WHEN I LOOK BACK AT WHEN I OPENED UP IN 2014 AFTER COMING 158 00:09:48,440 --> 00:09:49,190 OUT OF TREATMENT, 159 00:09:49,850 --> 00:09:53,379 IT HAPPENED FOR A REASON RIGHT AT THE RIGHT TIME AT THE RIGHT 160 00:09:53,389 --> 00:09:54,779 PLACE. 161 00:09:55,419 --> 00:09:58,519 WHATEVER THE REPORTER ASKED ME THAT DAY, WE'RE DOING OUR PIECE 162 00:09:58,529 --> 00:09:59,429 FOR S I 163 00:09:59,950 --> 00:10:01,500 I DON'T REMEMBER WHAT THE QUESTION WAS. 164 00:10:02,509 --> 00:10:04,500 BUT I GUESS IT JUST MADE ME FEEL CALM AND SAFE 165 00:10:05,080 --> 00:10:08,629 AND IT IT ALLOWED ME TO OPEN UP AND JUST SHOW I WAS I THINK AT 166 00:10:08,639 --> 00:10:12,450 THAT POINT FORWARD, I'VE NEVER LOOKED BACK. YOU KNOW, I THINK 167 00:10:12,460 --> 00:10:15,779 FOR ME, YOU KNOW, YOU SAW YOU SAW SOMEBODY, YOU KNOW, 168 00:10:16,860 --> 00:10:19,419 I THINK THROUGHOUT MY CAREER I WAS 169 00:10:20,000 --> 00:10:24,889 PUT UP AS THIS AMERICANS ICON THIS PERFECT POSTER BOY OF 170 00:10:24,899 --> 00:10:25,789 EVERYTHING. 171 00:10:27,350 --> 00:10:30,399 NO, THAT'S NOT THE CASE. I'M HUMAN. 172 00:10:30,990 --> 00:10:33,009 AND WE KNOW IN LIFE, NOTHING IS PERFECT. 173 00:10:33,730 --> 00:10:37,200 SO I WENT THROUGH UPS AND DOWNS AND I DID IN THE PUBLIC EYE, 174 00:10:38,070 --> 00:10:40,009 THE UPS AND DOWNS THAT I WENT THROUGH MY LIFE OR IN THE 175 00:10:40,019 --> 00:10:40,570 PUBLIC EYE. 176 00:10:42,019 --> 00:10:45,450 I HAD TO DEAL WITH THAT. PLUS 2 OF MY OWN STAFF. SO THE 177 00:10:45,460 --> 00:10:47,620 ONLY THING I KNEW HOW TO DO AT THAT POINT WAS TO 178 00:10:47,629 --> 00:10:51,409 COMPARTMENTALIZE, YOU KNOW, LIKE IF I THINK BACK TO MY MOM 179 00:10:51,690 --> 00:10:54,009 AND HER PARENTS AND THEIR PARENTS, PARENTS, 180 00:10:54,700 --> 00:10:57,779 THEY TAUGHT THEM TO SHOVE IT DOWN AND PRETEND LIKE 181 00:10:57,789 --> 00:11:01,240 EVERYTHING IS OK WHEN INSIDE IT MIGHT NOT BE. AND THAT'S NOT A 182 00:11:01,250 --> 00:11:04,070 KNOCK ON MY PARENTS AND MY MOM BY ANY MEANS, 183 00:11:05,009 --> 00:11:08,909 CORRECT? CORRECT. SO FOR ME LIKE THIS IS A TIME WHERE WE 184 00:11:08,919 --> 00:11:10,419 HAVE TO MAKE A GENERATIONAL SHIFT. 185 00:11:11,139 --> 00:11:14,059 ALL RIGHT. WE HAVE TO SHOW WHEN WE'RE NOT DOING VERY WELL. 186 00:11:14,389 --> 00:11:17,220 I LIKE TO ME IN MY HOUSEHOLD WHEN I'M HAVING A BAD DAY, 187 00:11:17,230 --> 00:11:18,379 MY KIDS SEE ME CRY. 188 00:11:19,110 --> 00:11:22,470 MY KIDS SEE ME SCREAM. THEY SEE ME JUST BREAKING DOWN 189 00:11:23,240 --> 00:11:24,789 AND THEY UNDERSTAND WHAT'S GOING ON. 190 00:11:25,279 --> 00:11:28,669 SO FOR ME, I'VE IMPLEMENTED WHEN I SAY SCREAM, IT'S NOT 191 00:11:28,679 --> 00:11:29,000 LIKE 192 00:11:29,860 --> 00:11:32,440 THIS IS WHAT SO WHEN I SAY SCREAM, IT MEANS 193 00:11:32,870 --> 00:11:34,960 WE IMPLEMENTED THIS THING CALLED A LION BREATH. SO THE 194 00:11:34,970 --> 00:11:38,250 LINE BREATH IS DEEP BREATH AND YOU GET TO ROAR AS LOUD AS YOU 195 00:11:38,259 --> 00:11:40,679 CAN. AND SOMETIMES IN THOSE MOMENTS, WHEN YOU SCREAM AS 196 00:11:40,690 --> 00:11:43,759 LOUD AS YOU CAN, YOU'RE YOU'RE ABLE TO DROP YOUR SHOULDERS, 197 00:11:44,039 --> 00:11:47,299 TAKE A DEEP BREATH AND TALK ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE FEELING, 198 00:11:47,309 --> 00:11:49,379 WHAT YOU'RE GOING THROUGH. AND FOR ME COMMUNICATING 199 00:11:49,389 --> 00:11:51,190 SOMETHING THAT I THINK IT'S SUPER IMPORTANT. 200 00:11:51,629 --> 00:11:53,470 I LEARNED VERY, VERY 201 00:11:54,259 --> 00:11:57,440 MUCH LATER IN LIFE AND I WOULD LIKE TO BUT I GOT THERE. 202 00:11:57,450 --> 00:11:59,830 SO I THINK FOR ME IT'S TRYING TO TEACH THEM TO COMMUNICATE 203 00:11:59,840 --> 00:12:02,289 THESE THINGS, NOT COMPARTMENTALIZE LIKE I DID FOR 204 00:12:02,299 --> 00:12:02,980 2 DECADES. 205 00:12:12,769 --> 00:12:16,309 >> THAT YOU RAISE THE GOT A DUI SPOKEN ABOUT THIS POINT. 206 00:12:21,840 --> 00:12:22,649 THE REPORT IS. 207 00:12:30,700 --> 00:12:34,779 >> YEAH, I MEAN, I THINK IN THAT MOMENT FOR ME, YOU KNOW, 208 00:12:34,789 --> 00:12:39,059 THERE'S A LOT OF SHAME AND I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO REALLY LIKE 209 00:12:39,070 --> 00:12:41,440 I HAD THE THOUGHT OF LIKE IT WAS ME THAT WAS PUTTING MY 210 00:12:41,450 --> 00:12:44,370 FAMILY THROUGH ALL OF THIS STRESS AND ALL OF THIS. NICE 211 00:12:44,379 --> 00:12:46,330 LIKE, OKAY, MAYBE IT'S BETTER IF I JUST LEAVE. 212 00:12:46,970 --> 00:12:50,700 AND AT THE TIME I WAS PRESCRIBED AMBIEN FROM OUR OUR 213 00:12:50,710 --> 00:12:54,919 DOCTORS ON OUR OUR TEAM TRIPS AND I WAS HAPPY. I ONLY HAD 3, 214 00:12:54,929 --> 00:12:57,029 3, PILLS LEFT, 215 00:12:57,580 --> 00:13:01,009 BUT ALL THAT NIGHT AND I WOKE UP THE NEXT MORNING AND DIDN'T 216 00:13:01,019 --> 00:13:03,629 EAT ANYTHING TO DRINK ANYTHING LIKE 2 OR 3 DAYS. 217 00:13:04,259 --> 00:13:06,929 AND AFTER THOSE 2 OR 3 DAYS THAT I DIDN'T REALLY WANT TO 218 00:13:06,940 --> 00:13:09,549 TALK TO ME, BUT HE DIDN'T WANT TO SEE ANYBODY. IT WAS KIND OF 219 00:13:09,559 --> 00:13:11,970 JUST TO THE POINT WHERE I KNEW I NEEDED HELP. 220 00:13:13,419 --> 00:13:16,179 THE THOUGHTS THAT I WAS HAVING WERE TOO MUCH AND THEY WERE 221 00:13:16,190 --> 00:13:19,259 OVERWHELMING AND THEY'RE SCARY. SO FOR ME, I COULDN'T GO 222 00:13:19,269 --> 00:13:22,330 THROUGH LIFE ANYMORE. ONE NOT SHARING THOSE, 223 00:13:22,759 --> 00:13:24,659 BUT TO NOT 224 00:13:25,350 --> 00:13:29,389 NOT FACING. I'M NOT TALKING ABOUT REALLY JUST DIVING DEEP 225 00:13:29,399 --> 00:13:33,029 INTO ME AND FIGURING OUT WHY I AM WHO I AM. WHY DO I STRUGGLE 226 00:13:33,039 --> 00:13:36,970 SO MUCH? WHY DO I GO THROUGH THESE UPS AND DOWNS AND SWINGS? 227 00:13:36,980 --> 00:13:39,200 SO FOR ME AT THAT POINT, I JUST CHECKED MYSELF INTO A TREATMENT 228 00:13:39,210 --> 00:13:42,009 CENTER FOR 45 45 DOES WHAT? 229 00:13:44,779 --> 00:13:48,570 YEAH, OBVIOUSLY GOT RIPPED APART. AND I SAY THAT UNLIKE 230 00:13:49,429 --> 00:13:52,139 IMAGINE LIKE MOTHER BOARD OF A COMPUTER, 231 00:13:52,649 --> 00:13:56,720 YOU JUST TAKE EVERYTHING APART. IT IS KIND OF REBUILD AND TALK 232 00:13:56,730 --> 00:13:59,909 ABOUT WHETHER IT'S, YOU KNOW, MY CHILDHOOD THINGS THAT I'M 233 00:13:59,919 --> 00:14:03,169 HAVING DIFFICULTY TIMES WITH GOOD THINGS AND KIND OF JUST 234 00:14:03,179 --> 00:14:04,539 PIECING IT ALL BACK TOGETHER. 235 00:14:05,000 --> 00:14:08,470 YOU KNOW, FOR ME, THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I NEVER WANTED TO 236 00:14:08,480 --> 00:14:12,419 TALK ABOUT. A LOT OF THAT WAS MAYBE AS MY UPBRINGING, MAYBE 237 00:14:12,429 --> 00:14:14,610 AS MY FATHER, MAYBE THERE'S OTHER THINGS I'M STRUGGLING 238 00:14:14,620 --> 00:14:15,289 WITH. THAT IS 239 00:14:15,590 --> 00:14:19,669 I WAS EMBARRASSED OF. SO FOR ME, IT IS JUST FACING THOSE 240 00:14:19,679 --> 00:14:21,389 THINGS. 241 00:14:21,879 --> 00:14:24,370 WENT TO THIS THING CALLED FAMILY WEEK THAT I MEAN, 242 00:14:24,379 --> 00:14:25,980 BASICALLY SAT IN A ROOM LIKE THIS. 243 00:14:26,809 --> 00:14:29,039 THEY'RE LIKE THIS. THERE'S A BOX OF TISSUES HERE 244 00:14:30,059 --> 00:14:33,149 AND FOR AN HOUR EACH DAY. AND SO I WENT THROUGH A BOX OF 245 00:14:33,159 --> 00:14:35,509 TISSUES. YOU JUST CRY EVERYTHING OUT. 246 00:14:35,899 --> 00:14:37,740 AND FOR ME, I THINK 247 00:14:39,389 --> 00:14:41,269 WHEN WHEN I LEFT THE MEADOWS, 248 00:14:42,440 --> 00:14:45,029 I HAD A BETTER, I GUESS A BETTER UNDERSTANDING ON HOW TO 249 00:14:45,039 --> 00:14:46,789 ATTACK LIFE, HOW TO APPROACH LIFE. 250 00:14:47,269 --> 00:14:50,490 I'M ALMOST IN A SENSE OF LIKE WHAT CAN YOU CONTROL? 251 00:14:51,049 --> 00:14:53,789 ALL RIGHT. LOOK, I THINK THAT'S KIND OF WHY THAT IS SUCH A BIG, 252 00:14:53,799 --> 00:14:56,960 IMPORTANT WORD IN MY LIFE NOW. WHAT CAN I CONTROL EVERY SINGLE 253 00:14:56,970 --> 00:14:59,970 DAY? YOU KNOW, RIGHT THERE SO MUCH IS OUT OF OUR CONTROL SO 254 00:14:59,980 --> 00:15:02,889 WE CAN FOCUS ON WHAT WE CAN CONTROL THAN NATURAL EVERYTHING 255 00:15:02,899 --> 00:15:04,129 ELSE TAKES CARE OF ITSELF 256 00:15:09,350 --> 00:15:09,850 SHARMAN. 257 00:15:13,639 --> 00:15:16,649 I MEAN, I WOULD SAY FOR ME, THE SUBSTANCE THAT IS THE 258 00:15:16,659 --> 00:15:20,250 SUBSTANCES THAT I WAS USING WAS IT WAS A RUN FOR JUST FOR HELP 259 00:15:20,259 --> 00:15:24,080 OR A CRY FOR HELP. YOU KNOW, I THINK THAT WAS A PART OF THE 260 00:15:24,090 --> 00:15:27,169 NOT KNOWING WHO TO TALK TO AND NOT KNOWING WHICH WAY TO TURN, 261 00:15:27,730 --> 00:15:29,320 YOU KNOW, LIKE AGAIN, LIKE 262 00:15:29,960 --> 00:15:33,899 IT WAS 15, 20 YEARS OF STUFF. JUST BUILT UP, BUILT A BILL TO 263 00:15:33,909 --> 00:15:39,000 OPEN. I'M THE ONLY THING I CAN DO IS RUN. AND THAT'S WHAT I'VE 264 00:15:39,009 --> 00:15:42,679 AGAIN COMPARTMENTALIZE. AND REALLY IT'S NOT HEALTHY. 265 00:15:42,690 --> 00:15:45,309 I COULD WON MORE GOLD MEDALS THERE. BUT THOSE THAT WANT TO 266 00:15:45,320 --> 00:15:45,789 BE PROUD OF 267 00:15:52,960 --> 00:15:55,649 LOOK LIKE I'M LUCKY TO BE HERE. I'M LUCKY TO HAVE EVERYTHING I 268 00:15:55,659 --> 00:15:58,529 HAVE. SO I'M GONNA GO DOWN SWINGING. NO MATTER WHAT LIKE I 269 00:15:58,539 --> 00:16:02,639 JUST HAD A CONVERSATION WITH. I GET CHOKED UP HERE. I SAY 270 00:16:02,649 --> 00:16:04,159 CONVERSATIONS WITH A BUDDY OF MINE DAY. 271 00:16:30,179 --> 00:16:32,220 SO FOR ME, THIS IS ALL FRESH. 272 00:16:34,049 --> 00:16:37,559 SO A FRIEND OF MINE. HE'S MY MENTAL HEALTH, BUDDY. AND HE 273 00:16:37,570 --> 00:16:39,960 KNOWS HE KNOWS. I'M TALKING ABOUT 274 00:16:41,600 --> 00:16:42,980 HOW TO SET A CASE. 275 00:16:43,539 --> 00:16:47,029 JAY GLAZER AND I ARE ARE MEANT TO WHERE MENTAL HEALTH BODIES. 276 00:16:47,039 --> 00:16:48,159 WE BOTH STRUGGLE 277 00:16:49,070 --> 00:16:51,929 ARRESTS AND JANE, I JAY GLAZER AND I ARE BOTH MENTAL HEALTH 278 00:16:51,940 --> 00:16:54,100 BUT IS AND WHEN WE'RE BOTH HAVING A BAD DAY, IT IS 279 00:16:54,600 --> 00:16:57,409 WE GO THROUGH SIMILAR UPS AND DOWNS AND 280 00:16:58,169 --> 00:17:01,690 WE DO SIMILAR THINGS WHEN WE'RE DOWN. THAT MAKES SENSE. 281 00:17:02,379 --> 00:17:03,110 AND 282 00:17:03,830 --> 00:17:05,690 WE BOTH HAVE THIS CONVERSATION THE OTHER DAY BECAUSE WHAT 283 00:17:05,700 --> 00:17:09,319 HAPPENS FOR ME, I REACHED OUT TO HIM WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM. 284 00:17:09,329 --> 00:17:12,480 HE REACHED OUT TO ME AND I HAVE A COUPLE FRIENDSHIP LIKE THAT 285 00:17:12,490 --> 00:17:14,599 WHERE WE'VE KIND OF REALLY BEEN ABLE TO FORM A BOND 286 00:17:16,019 --> 00:17:18,940 TO WHAT WE WERE SAYING BEFORE IS I LITERALLY THOUGHT ATTACKS 287 00:17:18,950 --> 00:17:20,720 HIM. I WAS LIKE, I'M NEVER QUITTING 288 00:17:21,259 --> 00:17:23,059 AFTER MY LIFE LIKE THAT'S NOT WHO I AM. 289 00:17:23,609 --> 00:17:27,720 SO ON THOSE DAYS WHERE YOU FEEL LIKE THIS, YOU WANT TO CRY OR 290 00:17:27,730 --> 00:17:30,089 YOU'RE HAVING A HARD DAY OR 2 MOTIONAL, WHATEVER IT IS, 291 00:17:30,500 --> 00:17:31,500 YOU CAN GET THROUGH IT. 292 00:17:32,190 --> 00:17:33,069 I MEAN, 293 00:17:33,789 --> 00:17:36,559 THIS IS ME, RIGHT, LIKE I GO THROUGH THESE UPS AND DOWNS ALL 294 00:17:36,569 --> 00:17:36,960 THE TIME. 295 00:17:38,130 --> 00:17:39,680 I KNOW THAT TOMORROW IS HERE. 296 00:17:40,160 --> 00:17:43,309 AND I KNOW I'M GOING TO LEARN SOMETHING FROM TODAY THAT WILL 297 00:17:43,319 --> 00:17:46,410 HELP ME BETTER TOMORROW. SO FOR ME, THAT'S JUST HOW I'VE 298 00:17:46,420 --> 00:17:49,779 ALWAYS BEEN. I LEARNED FROM MY PAST, YOU KNOW, FOR WHETHER 299 00:17:49,789 --> 00:17:52,569 IT'S A MISTAKE THAT A LEARNING EXPERIENCE, WHATEVER IT MIGHT 300 00:17:52,579 --> 00:17:53,900 BE HARD TO LOOK AT IT. 301 00:17:54,309 --> 00:17:57,279 THE PAST IS SUPPOSED TO HELP YOU FOR THE FUTURE. AND FOR ME, 302 00:17:57,289 --> 00:18:00,599 THE JOURNEY THAT I'VE BEEN ON, IT'S ALLOWED ME TO SEE MYSELF 303 00:18:00,609 --> 00:18:02,250 IN THE MIRROR AND LIKE MYSELF, WHO I AM. 304 00:18:05,470 --> 00:18:07,519 I THINK LIKE NATURALLY, 305 00:18:08,170 --> 00:18:11,150 I THINK I HAD REACHED OUT TO HIM EARLIER IN THE WEEK AND WE 306 00:18:11,160 --> 00:18:12,470 KIND OF WENT BACK AND FORTH 307 00:18:12,910 --> 00:18:17,009 AND HE'S SEE TO SEND ME A LONG MESSAGE. AND I JUST I MIGHT 308 00:18:17,019 --> 00:18:20,259 SEEM LIKE A SELFIE IN THE GYM. I WAS LIKE, I'M GOING THIS 309 00:18:20,269 --> 00:18:23,490 THING UP IN HERE TODAY, LIKE I GET REALLY INTENSE AND THAT 310 00:18:23,500 --> 00:18:25,450 WHEN I'M IN THE WEIGHT ROOM BECAUSE LIKE THAT'S THAT'S KIND 311 00:18:25,460 --> 00:18:26,240 OF MY ESCAPE 312 00:18:26,759 --> 00:18:30,740 LIKE I GET IN A WORKOUT ROOM AND IN OUR GYM EVERY SINGLE DAY 313 00:18:31,019 --> 00:18:32,329 TO ALLOW ME TO BE ME. 314 00:18:32,730 --> 00:18:36,619 AND I KNEW. BUT HE WOULD KNOW WHAT THAT SELFIE MET ME IN THE 315 00:18:36,630 --> 00:18:39,359 GYM. SO IT WAS LIKE, YES, YOU'RE GOING TO ROCK IT OUT. 316 00:18:39,369 --> 00:18:42,250 I LOVE IT. AND THAT'S WHAT IT'S LIKE. I'M NOT A QUITTER. 317 00:18:42,259 --> 00:18:46,190 LIKE, YEAH, LIKE THE LAST WEEK WAS REALLY HARD FOR ME. BUT 318 00:18:46,559 --> 00:18:49,549 JUST KNOWING WEEK, RIGHT, LIKE IT'S A WAY THAT IT'S SOMETHING 319 00:18:49,559 --> 00:18:52,859 THAT I GO THROUGH TO GIVE ME A CHANCE TO BE A BETTER VERSION 320 00:18:52,869 --> 00:18:53,160 OF ME. 321 00:18:58,019 --> 00:19:00,369 I WON'T QUIT. I THINK I WILL NEVER GIVE UP 322 00:19:01,130 --> 00:19:02,329 ANYTHING THAT, YOU KNOW, 323 00:19:02,910 --> 00:19:05,380 THERE'S SO MANY GOALS IN MIND THAT I HAVE AND WANT TO 324 00:19:05,390 --> 00:19:09,660 ACCOMPLISH. AND NO MATTER HOW HARD IT CATS NEVER GIVING UP. 325 00:19:09,670 --> 00:19:12,900 THERE'S A REASON WHY I WAS ABLE TO WIN 23 OLYMPIC GOLD MEDALS. 326 00:19:12,910 --> 00:19:16,730 RIGHT? SO I'M DETERMINED AND STUBBORN. 327 00:19:18,069 --> 00:19:21,920 YEAH, YOU COULD LAUNDRY LIST OF THINGS I JUST DON'T ABOUT. 328 00:19:26,589 --> 00:19:29,450 I MEAN, HONESTLY, IT'S TRYING TO SAVE AS MANY PEOPLE AS WE 329 00:19:29,460 --> 00:19:34,180 POSSIBLY CAN. YOU KNOW, ONE IN 4, 1, IN 5 PEOPLE STRUGGLE WITH 330 00:19:34,190 --> 00:19:37,200 SOME KIND OF MENTAL HEALTH AND HOW COME 1, 4, 5, PEOPLE ARE 331 00:19:37,210 --> 00:19:40,130 TALKING ABOUT IT. THAT'S A SERIOUS PROBLEM. YOU KNOW, 332 00:19:40,140 --> 00:19:43,210 FOR ME, I SEE THE SUICIDE RATE CONTINUE TO GO UP. 333 00:19:43,680 --> 00:19:44,400 WE WONDER WHY 334 00:19:45,930 --> 00:19:48,430 I THINK CORRECT, INCLUDING MY OLYMPIC FAMILY. 335 00:19:50,589 --> 00:19:51,960 WE HAVE TO DO SOMETHING TO STOP IT. 336 00:19:53,150 --> 00:19:55,700 WE HAVE TO WORK TOGETHER. YOU KNOW, FOR ME, 337 00:19:56,670 --> 00:19:58,769 YOU KNOW, FOR THE START OF THIS JOURNEY, I THOUGHT I WAS ALONE 338 00:19:58,779 --> 00:20:00,920 ON TOP OF THE MOUNTAIN THE WHOLE WAY THROUGH AND NOBODY 339 00:20:00,930 --> 00:20:03,009 WAS THERE WITH ME. AND I WAS JUST SCREAMING AS LOUD AS I 340 00:20:03,019 --> 00:20:04,279 COULD. AND NOBODY WAS LISTENING. 341 00:20:05,150 --> 00:20:07,880 I HAVE SOME FRIENDS UP THERE WITH ME. I NEED SOME MORE. 342 00:20:08,410 --> 00:20:11,049 SO FOR ME, THE ONLY THING I WOULD SAY IS I'M ASKING 343 00:20:11,059 --> 00:20:11,839 EVERYBODY TO HELP. 344 00:20:12,279 --> 00:20:13,930 ALL RIGHT. LIKE IF YOU ARE STRUGGLING, OPEN UP, 345 00:20:14,720 --> 00:20:17,819 FIND SOMEBODY YOU CAN CONFIDE IN AND JUST OPEN UP. YOU KNOW, 346 00:20:17,829 --> 00:20:20,059 THESE THINGS ARE IMPORTANT. WE WANT TO BE THE BEST VERSION 347 00:20:20,069 --> 00:20:20,799 OF US. 348 00:20:21,210 --> 00:20:24,069 GIVE YOURSELF THE BEST CHANCE TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF US. 349 00:20:40,730 --> 00:20:42,390 SURELY YOU ARE 350 00:20:48,980 --> 00:20:49,740 HONESTLY LIKE 351 00:20:50,480 --> 00:20:53,910 EVERY SINGLE THING I'VE GONE THROUGH, WHETHER IT'S THE DUIS, 352 00:20:53,920 --> 00:20:54,329 ARE 353 00:20:55,730 --> 00:20:59,299 DEPRESSION, SUICIDE, ANXIETY, WHATEVER IT IS, IT'S WHO I AM. 354 00:20:59,849 --> 00:21:03,460 I WOULDN'T CHANGE A SINGLE BIT OF A AGAIN BECAUSE I CAN LOOK 355 00:21:03,470 --> 00:21:05,490 IN THE MIRROR AND LIKE I SEE NO MATTER WHAT 356 00:21:18,509 --> 00:21:22,670 I MEAN, SELF-CARE OBVIOUSLY SO IMPORTANT. SO AND THAT IS A 357 00:21:22,680 --> 00:21:26,079 LAUNDRY LIST OF THINGS, RIGHT? LIKE YOU CAN WORK OUT. YOU CAN 358 00:21:26,089 --> 00:21:30,230 TAKE A WALK. YOU CAN MEDITATE. YOU CAN JOURNAL YOU CAN FIND A 359 00:21:30,240 --> 00:21:31,930 THERAPIST. 360 00:21:32,509 --> 00:21:35,619 I MEAN, THERE'S 1000 DIFFERENT THINGS. BUT WHATEVER YOU NEED 361 00:21:35,630 --> 00:21:38,319 TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF YOU, YOU HAVE TO DO THAT EVERY DAY. 362 00:21:38,329 --> 00:21:41,039 LIKE FOR ME, THE BEST VERSION OF ME HAS TO GET IN AND HAS TO 363 00:21:41,049 --> 00:21:45,049 SWEAT EVERY SINGLE DAY. NEED TO SWEAT HAVE TO GO WORK OUT EVERY 364 00:21:45,059 --> 00:21:48,910 DAY. THE SOMETHING SOMETHING ACTIVE. IF NOT. I JUST FEEL 365 00:21:48,920 --> 00:21:53,609 BLAH MAKE MANY THINK 25 YEARS OF DOING SOMETHING EVERY SINGLE 366 00:21:53,619 --> 00:21:56,799 DAY, SOMETHING NONSTOP. LIKE IT'S A PART OF WHO I AM. 367 00:21:56,809 --> 00:22:00,240 RIGHT. LIKE MY AD IS NEVER GOING TO GO LIKE IT'S JUST I'M 368 00:22:00,250 --> 00:22:04,259 ALWAYS ON THE GO. I'M ALWAYS MOVING. NEVER STOP. SO, YEAH, 369 00:22:04,269 --> 00:22:07,660 I HAVE TO WORK OUT. I JOURNAL AND DIFFICULT DAYS 370 00:22:09,349 --> 00:22:12,589 OBVIOUSLY HAVE A THERAPIST LIVE THERAPIST AND ONLINE THERE FOR 371 00:22:12,599 --> 00:22:16,230 A SECOND. GO TO. BUT I THINK LIKE ANYTHING THAT ALLOWS YOU 372 00:22:16,240 --> 00:22:18,880 TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF YOU, SOMETHING YOU HAVE TO DO. 373 00:22:18,890 --> 00:22:22,980 YOU KNOW FOR ME, MY WIFE ALWAYS SAYS IF MY GLASSES AND FULL, 374 00:22:22,990 --> 00:22:25,799 HOW AM I GOING TO FILL UP EVERYONE ELSE'S, RIGHT? SO 375 00:22:42,089 --> 00:22:45,029 I WOULD SAY ONE REACHED OUT TO A LOVED ONE THAT YOU CAN TRUST, 376 00:22:46,910 --> 00:22:50,049 YOU KNOW, AND AND I WOULD SAY GET ALSO 377 00:22:50,650 --> 00:22:54,450 ONE REACH OUT, SOMEBODY YOU CAN TRUST TO. I WOULD SAY YOU'RE 378 00:22:54,460 --> 00:22:54,990 NOT ALONE 379 00:22:55,750 --> 00:22:57,710 LIKE WITHOUT QUESTION. 380 00:22:58,269 --> 00:23:00,940 YOU KNOW, THERE ARE TIMES EVEN THOUGH I HAVE A ROLODEX OF 381 00:23:00,950 --> 00:23:03,799 PEOPLE, I CAN REACH OUT TO THEIR TIMES WASHING LIKE A MALL 382 00:23:04,369 --> 00:23:05,740 STILL TO COME IN. 383 00:23:06,259 --> 00:23:07,500 IT'S THOSE DAYS. BUT 384 00:23:08,019 --> 00:23:10,450 I STILL KNOW THAT MY CAR, I PICK UP THE PHONE. 385 00:23:11,180 --> 00:23:15,049 WHO CAN I CALL LIKE? JUST GO THROUGH AND MAKE A PHONE CALL. 386 00:23:16,769 --> 00:23:20,069 I SAY BRING FOR YOU SAID PEOPLE WATCHING. 387 00:23:23,809 --> 00:23:26,289 YEAH, I MEAN, I HONESTLY, I THINK, YOU KNOW, BESIDES 388 00:23:26,299 --> 00:23:28,450 REACHING OUT SOMEBODY'S LOVE, I THINK IT'S REALLY JUST 389 00:23:29,130 --> 00:23:30,150 IT'S BEING YOURSELF 390 00:23:31,390 --> 00:23:33,700 MY BRACELETS, BOTH OF THESE SAY BE YOU. 391 00:23:33,930 --> 00:23:38,150 I'M ONE OF THOSE KIND OF FADED. SO MY FRIEND, MAYBE ANOTHER 392 00:23:38,160 --> 00:23:42,380 ONE. SO I WEAR THESE EVERY DAY BECAUSE THAT'S THAT'S WHO I AM. 393 00:23:42,789 --> 00:23:44,210 IF I'M STRUGGLING 394 00:23:46,039 --> 00:23:49,069 AND SOMETIMES I'LL BE UP, SOMETIMES I'LL BE DOWN. BUT 395 00:23:49,079 --> 00:23:53,259 IT'S JUST WHAT'S GOING ON THAT DAY, RIGHT? SO BUT I THINK THE 396 00:23:53,269 --> 00:23:56,970 BEST PIECE OF ADVICE IS JUST BE YOUR AUTHENTIC SELF. THERE'S NO 397 00:23:56,980 --> 00:24:00,130 OTHER WAY WE SHOULD BE WERE ALSO SPECIAL IN OUR OWN WAY IS 398 00:24:00,140 --> 00:24:03,680 AND WE ALL OFFER SOMETHING SPECIAL TO THIS WORLD. SO WE'RE 399 00:24:03,690 --> 00:24:07,150 TRYING TO BE SOMEBODY DIFFICULT THEN FOR ME FOR TRYING TO BE 400 00:24:07,160 --> 00:24:08,039 SOMEBODY DIFFERENT. 401 00:24:09,359 --> 00:24:10,500 WE'RE NOT DOING OUR 402 00:24:10,890 --> 00:24:13,390 OUR BEST SELVES. WHO'S BEEN WITH THE 403 00:24:14,019 --> 00:24:15,660 IF YOU'RE TRYING TO BE SOMEBODY DIFFERENT, THEN 404 00:24:16,240 --> 00:24:18,960 WHAT ARE WE REALLY DOING EVERY DAY LIKE YOU? YOU'RE CHEATING 405 00:24:18,970 --> 00:24:19,470 AT LIFE 406 00:24:20,769 --> 00:24:23,140 FOR ME AGAIN, LIKE, YES, I STRUGGLE WITH DEPRESSION AND 407 00:24:23,150 --> 00:24:25,630 ANXIETY. THAT'S WHO I AM, RIGHT. LIKE IT'S NOT GOING TO 408 00:24:25,640 --> 00:24:30,099 GO. SO I'M OWNING IT AND I'M MOVING ON, RIGHT? LIKE I HAVE 409 00:24:30,109 --> 00:24:33,079 CERTAIN THINGS THAT I TRY TO DO TO CHANGE OR TO HELP OR DO THIS 410 00:24:33,089 --> 00:24:33,980 OR THAT. BUT 411 00:24:34,640 --> 00:24:37,490 2, I AM NOT CHANGING IT. YOU'RE NOT GOING TO TEND TO BE 412 00:24:37,500 --> 00:24:38,130 SOMETHING DIFFERENT. 413 00:24:54,730 --> 00:24:55,359 HONESTLY, 414 00:24:56,779 --> 00:24:59,769 I'M LUCKY HONESTLY, LIKE THIS IS SOMETHING THE 415 00:25:01,029 --> 00:25:03,809 AS YOU'VE HEARD AND SEEN LIKE I STRUGGLE WITH AND I KNOW THERE 416 00:25:03,819 --> 00:25:06,039 ARE PEOPLE OUT THERE STRUGGLING WITH THE SAME EXACT THING. 417 00:25:06,049 --> 00:25:09,059 AND FOR ME, I I JUST WANT TO HELP PEOPLE BECAUSE I KNOW 418 00:25:09,069 --> 00:25:11,089 EXACTLY WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO NOT WANT TO BE ALIVE. 419 00:25:11,690 --> 00:25:14,970 AND I KNOW WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO FEEL LIKE NO ONE LOVES YOU 420 00:25:14,980 --> 00:25:16,339 AND NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU AND 421 00:25:16,970 --> 00:25:19,940 WHATEVER ELSE YOU WANT TO SAY, RIGHT? SO FOR ME, I JUST 422 00:25:20,759 --> 00:25:21,950 ON TO GET SOMEBODY A CHANCE. 423 00:25:41,809 --> 00:25:42,720 THERE NEEDS TO BE MORE. 424 00:25:47,990 --> 00:25:51,730 THE ABC ORGANIZATIONS HAVE DONE SOME STEPS IN THE RIGHT 425 00:25:51,740 --> 00:25:53,769 DIRECTION TO GET 426 00:25:54,839 --> 00:25:57,529 HELPING CARE THAT US AS ATHLETES NEED. 427 00:25:58,549 --> 00:26:00,759 BUT THEY'RE NOT DOING EVERYTHING THEY CAN AND THAT 428 00:26:00,769 --> 00:26:01,309 UPSETS ME. 429 00:26:12,039 --> 00:26:14,839 I WANT TO SEE I WANT I WANT TO SEE THEM PUT THE ATHLETES 430 00:26:14,849 --> 00:26:15,279 FIRST. 431 00:26:18,319 --> 00:26:19,009 NOTHING ELSE TO SAY 432 00:26:25,049 --> 00:26:25,859 IT'S EVERYTHING 433 00:26:26,390 --> 00:26:27,569 THE ATHLETES NEED TO BE. FIRST. 434 00:26:30,880 --> 00:26:34,319 I WALKED INTO TRAINING ROOMS AT THE U.S. O C 435 00:26:35,029 --> 00:26:36,359 AND COULDN'T GET CARE 436 00:26:37,569 --> 00:26:40,440 THE 6 MONTHS BEFORE THE 2008 OLYMPIC GAMES. 437 00:26:42,349 --> 00:26:45,279 IT'S NOT ANYTHING I COULDN'T GET ACCESS. NO, NO PHYSICAL 438 00:26:45,289 --> 00:26:46,519 TRAINER WOULD HELP ME 439 00:26:48,180 --> 00:26:49,339 IF THAT'S HAPPENING WITH ME. 440 00:26:49,910 --> 00:26:50,990 IT'S HAPPENING WITH OTHERS, TOO. 441 00:26:52,369 --> 00:26:54,920 WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE THESE ATHLETES THAT ARE REPRESENTING 442 00:26:54,930 --> 00:26:55,529 OUR COUNTRY 443 00:26:56,299 --> 00:26:57,740 AND PUT THE ATHLETES FIRST. 444 00:27:08,619 --> 00:27:09,869 NOTHING THAT CAN BE RECORDED. 445 00:27:11,150 --> 00:27:13,990 THERE'S A LOT OF THAT. THERE'S THERE'S JUST A LOT OF EMOTIONS 446 00:27:14,000 --> 00:27:15,500 THERE. 447 00:27:16,380 --> 00:27:20,150 THERE'S SO MUCH PASSION FOR ME. AND I WANT I WANT WHAT'S RIGHT, 448 00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:25,690 PERIOD. THAT'S THAT'S ALL AND I WON'T STOP UNTIL EVERYTHING IS 449 00:27:25,700 --> 00:27:27,259 DONE THAT I THINK NEEDS TO BE DONE 450 00:27:39,839 --> 00:27:41,240 DISCUSSION. I THINK 451 00:27:42,740 --> 00:27:46,190 I THINK YOU'RE SEEING A SHIFT FROM IT. I THINK YOU'RE SEEING 452 00:27:46,200 --> 00:27:49,019 A SHIFT IN JUST A POLITICAL FRONT WITH SPEAKING OUT ABOUT 453 00:27:49,029 --> 00:27:51,950 MENTAL HEALTH, RIGHT. LIKE IF YOU GO 10 YEARS BACK, YOU'RE 454 00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:54,160 NEVER GOING TO SEE A FRONT HEADLINE TALKING ABOUT MENTAL 455 00:27:54,170 --> 00:27:54,609 HEALTH. 456 00:27:55,150 --> 00:27:58,160 NOW IT'S A CRISIS TO WRITE. SO IT'S SOMETHING THAT IS THAT 457 00:27:58,170 --> 00:28:00,890 THAT HAS OBVIOUSLY GOTTEN PEOPLE'S ATTENTION. THAT'S 458 00:28:00,900 --> 00:28:03,769 SOMETHING WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT. SO WE HAVE TO CONTINUE 459 00:28:03,779 --> 00:28:06,450 FURTHER IN THIS CONVERSATION. AND IF WE DON'T, THEN WE'RE 460 00:28:06,460 --> 00:28:08,880 GOING TO END UP DOING THE SAME EXACT THING REPEATING HISTORY 461 00:28:08,890 --> 00:28:09,650 LIKE WE'VE ALWAYS DONE. 462 00:28:27,730 --> 00:28:28,700 I MEAN, 463 00:28:29,529 --> 00:28:33,140 MY HOUSE. AND AND YOU KNOW, IF THE KIDS, NICOLE AND I ARE VERY 464 00:28:33,150 --> 00:28:36,240 OPEN. SO WE WE TALK ABOUT ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING AROUND 465 00:28:36,250 --> 00:28:39,809 OUR KIDS. YOU KNOW, AGAIN, IT'S BACK TO THAT WORD CONTROL. 466 00:28:39,819 --> 00:28:43,750 WHAT CAN YOU CONTROL? YOU KNOW, FOR ME WHEN I'M AROUND POSTING 467 00:28:43,759 --> 00:28:47,329 ON SOCIAL MEDIA, I TRY NOT TO READ INTO HIS COMMENTS, YOU 468 00:28:47,339 --> 00:28:49,660 KNOW, BECAUSE SOME OF THE COMMENTS CAN BE BRUTAL. I'VE 469 00:28:49,670 --> 00:28:53,819 HAD DEATH THREATS TOWARDS MY FAMILY. MY KIDS LIKE REALLY 470 00:28:53,829 --> 00:28:58,680 IT'S RIDICULOUS. AND IT'S CRAZY TO SEE. BUT AGAIN, WHAT CAN YOU 471 00:28:58,690 --> 00:29:02,279 CONTROL? AND FOR ME, YOU KNOW, WHEN I'M ON SOCIAL MEDIA, 472 00:29:02,289 --> 00:29:05,259 I TRY TO SHOW YOU WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH MY LIFE, WHETHER 473 00:29:05,269 --> 00:29:08,640 IT'S GOOD OR BAD. THAT'S WHY THAT'S HOW I ALWAYS USE SOCIAL 474 00:29:08,650 --> 00:29:11,130 MEDIA. YOU'RE SEEING THE BEST VERSION OF WHO I AM AND THE 475 00:29:11,140 --> 00:29:14,000 REAL VERSION OF WHO I AM. THAT'S ALL ALWAYS BE ON SOCIAL 476 00:29:14,009 --> 00:29:14,160 MEDIA. 477 00:29:18,470 --> 00:29:21,150 I'VE GONE THROUGH ENOUGH DEALING WITH IT THAT IT 478 00:29:21,160 --> 00:29:23,369 DOESN'T. IT DOESN'T AFFECT ME. IT'S JUST 479 00:29:23,890 --> 00:29:26,589 PEOPLE ARE PEOPLE. YOU CAN'T CONTROL WHAT THEY DO OR WHAT 480 00:29:26,599 --> 00:29:26,900 THEY SAY 481 00:29:48,779 --> 00:29:51,750 FOR SURE. I MEAN, I THINK FROM AN ATHLETE STANDPOINT, YOU 482 00:29:51,759 --> 00:29:54,319 KNOW, WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT WHAT MENTAL HEALTH IS REALLY DONE IN 483 00:29:54,329 --> 00:29:57,660 THE LAST 5 YEARS, 6 YEARS, 8 YEARS, IT'S INCREDIBLE, RIGHT, 484 00:29:57,670 --> 00:30:01,680 BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE ACTUALLY USE THEIR THEIR VOICE AND BEEN ABLE 485 00:30:01,690 --> 00:30:04,690 TO SHARE THEIR OWN STORY. SO, YEAH, I THINK IT'S AWESOME, 486 00:30:04,700 --> 00:30:07,319 RIGHT? I THINK WE NEED MORE OF IT, RIGHT? THAT'S THE ONLY ONE 487 00:30:07,329 --> 00:30:10,480 NORMALIZED, YOU KNOW, AND ALL OF OUR STORIES ARE DIFFERENT 488 00:30:10,490 --> 00:30:13,440 YET. THEY'RE SIMILAR IN A LOT OF DIFFERENT WAYS. SO, YOU 489 00:30:13,450 --> 00:30:16,339 KNOW, WHEN YOU HAVE WHEN YOU HAD NAOMI OSAKA OPEN UP ON HER 490 00:30:16,349 --> 00:30:19,420 OWN PLATFORM TO ME, I THOUGHT THAT WAS SO POWERFUL, RIGHT? 491 00:30:19,430 --> 00:30:22,299 SHE WAS ABLE TO TO FORMULATE EXACTLY WHAT SHE WAS GOING 492 00:30:22,309 --> 00:30:25,150 THROUGH. PUTIN PUTTING INTO WORDS, RIDE, SHARING THAT WITH 493 00:30:25,160 --> 00:30:30,240 EVERYBODY WHO WANTS TO SEE AND IT'S NOT EASY TO DO. YOU KNOW, 494 00:30:30,250 --> 00:30:31,589 YOU SEE SIMONE BILES 495 00:30:32,349 --> 00:30:35,359 SHOWED UP AT THE THE WORST POSSIBLE MOMENT, RIGHT? YOU 496 00:30:35,369 --> 00:30:37,960 KNOW, I THINK THAT JUST SHOWS YOU THAT MENTAL HEALTH 497 00:30:38,329 --> 00:30:41,619 CAN COME AND GO AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT. SO IF YOU'RE NOT FULLY 498 00:30:41,630 --> 00:30:44,740 PREPARED FOR IT, YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN, RIGHT? 499 00:30:44,750 --> 00:30:47,200 SO IT'S PREPARATION IS SO IMPORTANT THIS MOMENT. 500 00:30:47,509 --> 00:30:51,829 BUT AGAIN, LIKE I THINK IT'S SO IMPORTANT AND POWERFUL WHEN YOU 501 00:30:51,839 --> 00:30:54,859 HAVE THESE ATHLETES, THE CELEBRITIES, POLITICAL FIGURES, 502 00:30:54,869 --> 00:30:58,019 WHOEVER MIGHT BE STAND UP AND TALK ABOUT THEIR OWN PERSONAL 503 00:30:58,029 --> 00:30:58,539 STRUGGLES 504 00:30:59,069 --> 00:31:01,799 BECAUSE IF THEY DO THAT, THEN THE PEOPLE WORKING AROUND THEM, 505 00:31:01,809 --> 00:31:04,359 THE PEOPLE THAT ARE IN THEIR LIVES SEE IT AS SOMETHING 506 00:31:04,369 --> 00:31:07,029 NORMAL AND THEY CAN DROP THEIR SHOULDERS AND THEY CAN TALK 507 00:31:07,039 --> 00:31:10,329 ABOUT IT, TOO. BUT UNTIL THAT HAPPENS, THE SUICIDE RATE IS 508 00:31:10,339 --> 00:31:11,349 GOING TO CONTINUE TO CLIMB 509 00:31:21,859 --> 00:31:23,440 OF HOW YOU HEAR IT, TOO. 510 00:31:23,970 --> 00:31:27,329 >> WHY IS THAT IMPORTANT AND HOW DO YOU DO THAT? 511 00:31:28,549 --> 00:31:29,450 5 A? 512 00:31:30,819 --> 00:31:32,700 >> YEAH. YOU KNOW, I MEAN 513 00:31:33,150 --> 00:31:34,900 FOR ME GROWING UP, I. 514 00:31:36,390 --> 00:31:40,089 >> MY DAD WAS NEVER. ALL RIGHT. SO FOR ME LIKE I WANT SOMETHING 515 00:31:40,099 --> 00:31:42,480 DIFFERENT IN MY HOUSEHOLD. SO, YOU KNOW, DINNER IS VERY 516 00:31:42,490 --> 00:31:45,829 IMPORTANT. AND AND, YOU KNOW, OUR SCHEDULE AND ALL THIS STUFF 517 00:31:45,839 --> 00:31:48,069 AND LIKE JUST TRYING TO TEACH KIDS LITTLE SMALL, IMPORTANT 518 00:31:48,079 --> 00:31:50,309 TOOLS THAT ARE GOING TO HELP THEM GO THROUGH LIFE. RIGHT. 519 00:31:50,490 --> 00:31:53,410 AND FOR ME, IT'S LIKE AS LONG AS I CAN JUST GIVE THEM 520 00:31:53,420 --> 00:31:55,930 SOMETHING THEM, THEY'RE GOING TO BE THE BEST PERSON IN THEM, 521 00:31:55,940 --> 00:31:57,890 RIGHT? LIKE, I DON'T KNOW THE ANSWER. 522 00:32:10,539 --> 00:32:11,779 BUT I THINK LAKE, 523 00:32:12,160 --> 00:32:15,140 YOU KNOW, YES, 100% LIKE MY BOYS, SHE MIGHT MOTIONS THIS. 524 00:32:15,150 --> 00:32:18,049 YOU MY RAW EMOTIONS ALL THE TIME. BUT ALSO, I THINK YOU SEE 525 00:32:18,059 --> 00:32:22,259 THE YOUNGER GENERATIONS ARE MORE OPEN AND MORE WILLING TO 526 00:32:22,269 --> 00:32:25,250 SPEAK ABOUT WHAT THEY'RE GOING FOR. RIGHT. SO I THINK IT'S 527 00:32:25,259 --> 00:32:28,430 SOMETHING THAT THAT THE OLDER GENERATIONS US AND OLDER SHOULD 528 00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:31,440 REALLY LEARN FROM, RIGHT, LIKE THERE'S NO FEAR THEY'RE OPENING 529 00:32:31,450 --> 00:32:35,839 UP AND BEING TO BE JUST WHO THEY ARE. SO I MEAN, I WAS ALL 530 00:32:35,849 --> 00:32:38,559 ON WITH THIS AND JUST BY SAYING THAT, YOU KNOW, THIS MENTAL 531 00:32:38,569 --> 00:32:41,230 HEALTH MONTH, I WANT EVERYBODY TO CHALLENGE THEMSELVES. 532 00:32:41,240 --> 00:32:43,740 IF THEY'RE GOING THROUGH SOME KIND OF STRUGGLE, OPEN UP, 533 00:32:43,809 --> 00:32:46,740 FIND SOMEBODY YOU CAN TALK TO RIGHT YOUR STUFF DOWN, WHATEVER 534 00:32:46,750 --> 00:32:49,660 IT IS, WHATEVER YOU'RE GOING THROUGH THAT YOU'RE FEELING IS 535 00:32:49,670 --> 00:32:51,059 DIFFICULT. STRUGGLE 536 00:32:51,609 --> 00:32:53,720 CAN'T HAPPEN. IF YOU CAN'T LIVE ANOTHER DAY, 537 00:32:54,329 --> 00:32:55,539 I'M CHALLENGING YOU 538 00:32:56,579 --> 00:33:00,000 TO GET THOSE FEELINGS OUT OF YOUR BODY SOMEHOW RIGHT DOWN. 539 00:33:00,009 --> 00:33:01,750 TALK TO SOMEBODY, DO SOMETHING 540 00:33:02,619 --> 00:33:05,299 AND SEE HOW YOU FEEL GOOD FROM ONE HOME. AND THAT'S IT. 541 00:33:06,509 --> 00:33:08,990 30 DAYS TO CREATE A HABIT. YOU DO IT FOR A MONTH. 542 00:33:09,500 --> 00:33:10,549 I WANT TO HEAR HOW PEOPLE FEEL 543 00:33:14,869 --> 00:33:15,789 SO 544 00:33:20,279 --> 00:33:20,980 SWEET. 545 00:33:34,680 --> 00:33:39,160 I MEAN, FOR ME, I STARTED THE FOUNDATION BACK IN 2008, 546 00:33:39,170 --> 00:33:42,289 I WAS GIFTED, A MILLION DOLLAR BONUS WILL SPONSOR. AND 547 00:33:42,869 --> 00:33:45,460 I INITIALLY WANTED TO TEACH THE IMPORTANCE OF WATER SAFETY AND 548 00:33:45,470 --> 00:33:48,609 AND THAT THAT WAS IN FACT, THE ONLY REASON WHY 549 00:33:48,940 --> 00:33:51,339 EVER STARTED SOMETHING. MY MOM JUST WANTED US TO BE WATER 550 00:33:51,349 --> 00:33:52,089 SAFE. SO, 551 00:33:52,480 --> 00:33:54,740 YOU KNOW, FOR ME, I LEARNED THAT DROWNING WAS THE SECOND 552 00:33:54,750 --> 00:33:57,119 HIGHEST CAUSE OF DEATH FOR CHILDREN UNDER THE AGE OF 14. 553 00:33:57,130 --> 00:33:57,579 SO 554 00:33:58,039 --> 00:34:01,599 NOW BEING A DAD OF 4 BOYS THAT ALARMING. SO I WANTED TO TRY TO 555 00:34:01,609 --> 00:34:04,259 IMPACT AS MANY PEOPLE AS I COULD JUST TO HAVE HIM BE SAFE, 556 00:34:04,269 --> 00:34:07,470 ENJOY THE WATER. THAT IS SOMETHING THAT WE CALL LOVE AND 557 00:34:07,480 --> 00:34:11,739 HAVE A GOOD TIME. AND THEN WE TRANSITIONED AND ADDED A 558 00:34:11,750 --> 00:34:14,440 SEPARATE COMPONENT OF MENTAL HEALTH. NOW BEING ABLE TO OPEN 559 00:34:14,449 --> 00:34:16,480 UP AND TEACH KIDS THE IMPORTANCE OF THE 8 THIS 560 00:34:16,489 --> 00:34:19,750 MOTIONS, RIGHT, BEING ABLE TO JUST COMMUNICATE. I THINK 561 00:34:19,760 --> 00:34:23,090 SOMETHING SO IMPORTANT AND BEING ABLE TO GIVE THEM A 562 00:34:23,099 --> 00:34:26,849 COUPLE TOOLS THAT THAT THEY'RE ABLE TO GO ON THIS JOURNEY 563 00:34:26,860 --> 00:34:30,250 TOGETHER, GOING THIS LIFELONG JOURNEY. YOU'VE OF CHALLENGING 564 00:34:30,260 --> 00:34:33,159 LIFE, RIGHT, TRYING TO TRYING TO CONQUER LIFE. 565 00:34:44,519 --> 00:34:48,320 SAME THING. CONTINUE ON TRYING TO TRYING TO 566 00:34:49,340 --> 00:34:50,980 LOWER THE STIGMA OF MENTAL HEALTH. 567 00:34:52,429 --> 00:34:54,059 YOU KNOW, LOWER THE SUICIDE RATE, 568 00:34:56,760 --> 00:35:00,349 BE A DAD. I DON'T KNOW. THERE ARE SOME GOALS THAT I HAVE. 569 00:35:00,360 --> 00:35:03,179 BUT, YOU KNOW, I THINK EVERYTHING AROUND MENTAL HEALTH 570 00:35:03,190 --> 00:35:06,400 IS IS REALLY WHAT KEEPS ME UP AT NIGHT AND GETS ME EXCITED TO 571 00:35:06,409 --> 00:35:08,980 GET OUT OF BED EVERY SINGLE DAY, RIGHT? LIKE IT'S THE SAME 572 00:35:08,989 --> 00:35:12,059 EXACT THING THAT IT WAS NO SWIMMING. I THINK THESE THINGS 573 00:35:12,070 --> 00:35:16,079 ARE ARE THE REASON FOR ME TO BE HERE, YOU KNOW, LIKE THERE'S SO 574 00:35:16,090 --> 00:35:18,940 MANY PEOPLE THAT THAT NEED HELP AND I WANT TO HELP AS MANY ON 575 00:35:18,949 --> 00:35:21,840 THIS AND POSSIBLY CAN LIKE. THAT'S JUST NOT WHO I AM. 576 00:35:21,849 --> 00:35:22,610 THAT'S WHAT I'M GOING TO DO. 577 00:35:34,929 --> 00:35:38,289 WELL, WITHOUT QUESTION THE YOU KNOW, THAT WAS SOMETHING THAT 578 00:35:38,300 --> 00:35:41,539 IS AS A COMPETITOR. I ALWAYS SAW 2. I LIKE 579 00:35:42,840 --> 00:35:45,730 EVERY 4 YEARS WE HAVE THE PRESIDENTIAL RACE, RIGHT, 580 00:35:45,739 --> 00:35:48,769 LIKE AND IT'S ALWAYS KIND OF A CRAZY TIME. BUT, YOU KNOW, 581 00:35:48,780 --> 00:35:52,570 I ALWAYS THINK THAT NO MATTER WHAT'S GOING ON, WHETHER IT'S 582 00:35:52,579 --> 00:35:56,059 IN THE U.S. WE'RE ALL OVER THE GLOBE. THE OLYMPICS IS 583 00:35:56,070 --> 00:35:59,530 SOMETHING THAT BRINGS EVERYBODY TOGETHER. YOU KNOW, THE SPIRIT 584 00:35:59,539 --> 00:36:03,420 OF THE OLYMPIC GAMES. IT'S SO MAGICAL. AND FOR ME, IT'S IT'S 585 00:36:03,429 --> 00:36:06,469 IT'S JUST SOMETHING THAT I CAN'T IMAGINE LIFE WITHOUT. 586 00:36:06,750 --> 00:36:10,010 YOU KNOW, THIS SUMMER IS GOING TO BE INCREDIBLE OPPORTUNITY TO 587 00:36:10,019 --> 00:36:11,670 TO HAVE PARIS REALLY SHOW. 588 00:36:12,300 --> 00:36:15,300 BUT THAT'S IT IS ALL ABOUT RIGHTS AND THE ICONIC VENUES 589 00:36:15,309 --> 00:36:16,559 AND HE'S A MENU. 590 00:36:17,730 --> 00:36:21,070 HIS ICONIC VENUES IN THESE AMAZING POOLS, VOLLEYBALL 591 00:36:21,079 --> 00:36:23,340 COURTS, WHATEVER IT MIGHT BE THAT YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE 592 00:36:23,820 --> 00:36:27,440 RIGHT. AND AND TO BE ABLE TO PLAY BEACH VOLLEYBALL UNDER THE 593 00:36:27,449 --> 00:36:30,409 EIFFEL TOWER, RIGHT? LIKE ALL OF THESE THINGS LIKE I JUST 594 00:36:30,420 --> 00:36:33,449 HAVE THESE LIKE JUST VISIONS OF MY HEAD OF THIS, THAT THIS THIS 595 00:36:33,460 --> 00:36:37,329 SUMMER'S GAMES AND NOTHING THAT HAPPENS, YOU KNOW, FOR ME, 596 00:36:37,340 --> 00:36:39,949 THAT'S THAT'S WHAT I FEEL AROUND OLYMPIC GAMES. AND I 597 00:36:39,960 --> 00:36:40,840 CAN'T WAIT TO GET THE PARENTS. 598 00:36:42,059 --> 00:36:46,820 I MEAN, IT'S NOT OUR HOUSEHOLDS SPORTS HOUSEHOLD. SO NOW BEING 599 00:36:46,829 --> 00:36:49,570 ABLE TO SEE THE WORLD'S BEST COMPETE IS SOMETHING THAT 600 00:36:49,579 --> 00:36:50,230 ALWAYS EXCITING, 601 00:37:05,440 --> 00:37:09,139 HARD WORK, DEDICATION, PASSION, 602 00:37:10,070 --> 00:37:10,940 NEVER GIVING UP 603 00:37:11,610 --> 00:37:16,219 SMALL THINGS. NOW THEY KIND OF HAVE AN IDEA OF WHO I AM NOW. 604 00:37:16,230 --> 00:37:18,380 I THINK THIS OFF OF THEIR FRIENDS AND 605 00:37:18,579 --> 00:37:21,349 I HAD A KID, ONE OF MY SON, MY SON'S BRING 606 00:37:22,070 --> 00:37:26,679 A BOOK OF ME HOME FROM THE SCHOOL LIBRARY. SO, YOU KNOW, 607 00:37:26,690 --> 00:37:31,780 SO IT'S KIND OF FUNNY, BUT OUT OF OLD, MAYBE FEEL REALLY OLD. 608 00:37:32,289 --> 00:37:37,070 BUT, YOU KNOW, I THINK FOR ME IS AS LONG AS I CAN HELP THEM 609 00:37:37,079 --> 00:37:40,130 FIND SOMETHING THAT THEY CAN PUT EVERYTHING INTO AND JUST 610 00:37:40,139 --> 00:37:44,769 GIVE IT ALL. YOU KNOW, MY OLDEST SAID HE'S THE ONLY ONE. 611 00:37:44,780 --> 00:37:45,889 I'VE GOT AN ANSWER OUT OF. 612 00:37:46,349 --> 00:37:47,960 HE SAID HE WANTS TO BE THE NEXT MESSI. 613 00:37:48,630 --> 00:37:52,380 THAT'S WHY THIS IS BECAUSE HE SCORES A LOT OF GOALS. I WAS 614 00:37:52,389 --> 00:37:55,659 LIKE, OKAY, OKAY. WE'VE GOT TO WORK IN OTHER THINGS BESIDES 615 00:37:55,670 --> 00:38:00,199 JUST SCORING GOALS. BUT BUT FOR ME, JUST JUST WATCHING A KID 616 00:38:00,210 --> 00:38:02,619 HAVE A DREAM AND CHASE IT RIGHT. LIKE, YOU KNOW, THAT'S 617 00:38:02,630 --> 00:38:05,210 WHAT I THINK OF JUST SOME KID FROM BALTIMORE WHO WASN'T 618 00:38:05,219 --> 00:38:08,760 AFRAID TO GO AFTER EVERYTHING YOU'VE DROPPED OF, YOU KNOW IT 619 00:38:09,110 --> 00:38:11,670 PEOPLE TELLING YOU THAT IT'S NOT POSSIBLE OR THE SIDE OF THE 620 00:38:11,679 --> 00:38:14,539 OTHER. JUST NEVER GIVING UP ON SOMETHING YOU BELIEVE 621 00:38:15,039 --> 00:38:15,989 IS POSSIBLE. 622 00:38:18,260 --> 00:38:19,599 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SURE.