1 00:00:00,200 --> 00:00:03,403 IF YOU WANT TO WATCH IT AGAIN, 2 00:00:03,403 --> 00:00:09,876 WHICH I DID, GO TO INSTAGRAM. >> IF LOOKING FOR SOMETHING TO 3 00:00:09,876 --> 00:00:14,748 WATCH, TWIST WORDS IS BEING HELD THIS WEEKEND, HOST IS DEMI 4 00:00:14,748 --> 00:00:16,750 LOVATO. >> THE CEREMONY WILL LOOK 5 00:00:16,750 --> 00:00:19,052 DIFFERENT. I GOT THE CHANCE TO CATCH UP 6 00:00:19,052 --> 00:00:24,157 WITH HER BEFORE THE BIG NIGHT. >> FOR MANY, DEMI LOVATO IS A 7 00:00:24,157 --> 00:00:28,428 REMINDER OF THEIR CHILDHOOD AS THEY WATCHED HER RISE TO FAME ON 8 00:00:28,428 --> 00:00:31,431 DISNEY CHANNEL "CAMP ROCK." >> ARE YOU EXCITED? 9 00:00:31,431 --> 00:00:35,001 >> A LITTLE, OKAY, A LOT, YES, MAJOR. 10 00:00:35,001 --> 00:00:39,806 >> IT WAS NO SURPRISE SHE SOON BROKE INTO THE MUSIC SCENE, 11 00:00:39,806 --> 00:00:43,610 TAKING THE STAGE BY STORM. NOW THE GRAMMY NOMINATED SINGER 12 00:00:43,610 --> 00:00:49,916 IS UNDERTAKING A NEW CHALLENGE. HOST OF PEOPLE'S CHOICE AWARDS 13 00:00:49,916 --> 00:00:51,818 THIS SUNDAY. >> TELL ME WHEN YOU FIRST SAT IN 14 00:00:51,818 --> 00:00:55,488 THE AUDIENCE TEN YEARS AGO, COULD YOU EVER HAVE THOUGHT ONE 15 00:00:55,488 --> 00:00:59,526 DAY I'M GOING TO BE ON THAT STAGE RUNNING THE WHOLE SHOW? 16 00:00:59,526 --> 00:01:03,663 >> I THINK MY FIRST TIME AT THE PEOPLE'S CHOICE AWARDS I WAS 17 00:01:03,663 --> 00:01:07,701 PERFORMING, IT WAS ONE OF THE FIRST TIMES I PERFORMED AT AN 18 00:01:07,701 --> 00:01:10,637 AWARDS SHOW ON A MAIN STAGE. I COULD SEE PEOPLE IN THE 19 00:01:10,637 --> 00:01:12,806 AUDIENCE THAT I RESPECTED AND ADMIRED. 20 00:01:12,806 --> 00:01:16,910 I WAS SO NERVOUS. >> YOU STARTED YOUR YEAR, WHAT A 21 00:01:16,910 --> 00:01:20,080 YEAR IT HAS BEEN, PERFORMING, SINGING THE NATIONAL ANTHEM AT 22 00:01:20,080 --> 00:01:23,717 THE SUPER BOWL. THEN THIS IS THE WAY YOU'RE 23 00:01:23,717 --> 00:01:25,618 CLOSING. WHAT HAS THIS YEAR BEEN LIKE FOR 24 00:01:25,618 --> 00:01:27,954 YOU? >> THIS YEAR. 25 00:01:27,954 --> 00:01:31,758 I DON'T KNOW HOW ANYBODY CAN ANSWER THAT QUESTION HONESTLY. 26 00:01:31,758 --> 00:01:35,962 IT HAS BEEN SUCH A ROLLER COASTER, HONESTLY, FOR ME, THE 27 00:01:35,962 --> 00:01:40,100 BEGINNING OF THE YEAR STARTED OUT, I WAS ON A TRAJECTORY TO 28 00:01:40,100 --> 00:01:45,205 HAVE AN EVENTFUL CAREER AND I WAS PLANNING MY COME BACK, 29 00:01:45,205 --> 00:01:49,275 RELEASING THE ALBUM. HONESTLY, WHAT I CAN SAY IS 30 00:01:49,275 --> 00:01:53,013 THANK GOD I DIDN'T RELEASE THE ALBUM WHEN I WANTED TO BECAUSE I 31 00:01:53,013 --> 00:01:56,383 HAD SO MUCH TO EXPERIENCE. I THINK THE MOST IMPORTANT THING 32 00:01:56,383 --> 00:02:01,121 I LEARNED IS HOW MUCH I AM OKAY WITH MYSELF AND LOVING MYSELF. 33 00:02:01,121 --> 00:02:04,858 >> AND DEMI HAS COME A LONG WAY, GOING PUBLIC ABOUT EVERYTHING 34 00:02:04,858 --> 00:02:09,396 FROM HER DIAGNOSIS WITH BIPOLAR DISORDER TO BATTLING PERSONAL 35 00:02:09,396 --> 00:02:14,768 DEMONS, INCLUDING HER STRUGGLE WITH BULIMIA AND SUBSTANCE 36 00:02:14,768 --> 00:02:16,836 ABUSE. >> IT IS ONE THING TO LIVE WITH 37 00:02:16,836 --> 00:02:20,473 STRUGGLE, A LOT OF PEOPLE DO, IT IS ANOTHER THING TO DECIDE IT 38 00:02:20,473 --> 00:02:23,843 ISN'T JUST YOUR STORY TO CARRY, THAT YOU WANT TO SHARE IT WITH 39 00:02:23,843 --> 00:02:26,079 OTHERS. AND I WONDER LIKE WHEN DID YOU 40 00:02:26,079 --> 00:02:30,650 MAKE THAT DECISION? >> I WISH THAT I COULD HAVE HAD 41 00:02:30,650 --> 00:02:32,719 A DIFFERENT THIRD OPTION IN THERE. 42 00:02:32,719 --> 00:02:36,089 IT WAS LIKE MAYBE WAIT A LITTLE BIT TO TELL YOUR STORY, KEEP IT 43 00:02:36,089 --> 00:02:39,459 PRIVATE FOR NOW, BUT THERE'S SOMETHING COMMENDABLE ABOUT 44 00:02:39,459 --> 00:02:42,595 PEOPLE THAT OWN UP TO THEIR FAULTS, LEARN FROM IT, SHOW 45 00:02:42,595 --> 00:02:48,335 OTHERS HOW TO GET THROUGH IT. I WANTED TO BE THAT FOR 46 00:02:48,335 --> 00:02:49,736 SOMEBODY. >> WHEN SOMEBODY SAYS YOUR STORY 47 00:02:49,736 --> 00:02:52,572 MADE MY STORY, WHAT GOES THROUGH YOUR MIND? 48 00:02:52,572 --> 00:02:59,612 >> SOMETIMES FANS SAY THINGS THAT ARE UNFATHOMABLE. 49 00:02:59,612 --> 00:03:07,520 THEY'RE THE ONES THAT SAVED THEIR OWN LIVES. I 50 00:03:07,520 --> 00:03:10,824 >> YOU READ ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH AND ADDICTION DURING THE 51 00:03:10,824 --> 00:03:11,958 PANDEMIC. SOMEBODY THAT'S WATCHING THAT 52 00:03:11,958 --> 00:03:16,429 MAY BE LIKE I JUST NEED A LIFE LINE, WHAT WOULD YOU SAY TO 53 00:03:16,429 --> 00:03:19,132 THEM? >> I WOULD SAY EXPLORE. 54 00:03:19,132 --> 00:03:22,335 I WOULD SAY EXPLORE. IT WASN'T UNTIL THIS YEAR THAT I 55 00:03:22,335 --> 00:03:27,073 REALLY STARTED EXPLORING WITH THINGS THAT MAKE ME -- THAT 56 00:03:27,073 --> 00:03:29,809 BRING JOY TO MY LIFE IN LITTLE WAYS. 57 00:03:29,809 --> 00:03:34,848 I GOT INTO PHOTOGRAPHY. TAKING PICTURES ON MY iPHONE OF 58 00:03:34,848 --> 00:03:36,116 FLOWERS. SIMPLE THINGS. 59 00:03:36,116 --> 00:03:37,984 THAT ENDED UP BRINGING ME A LOT OF JOY. 60 00:03:37,984 --> 00:03:41,154 YOU KIND OF HAVE TO KEEP STIMULATING YOURSELF TO BECOME 61 00:03:41,154 --> 00:03:46,526 THE BEST VERSION OF YOURSELF. >> FOR DEMI, HER MUSIC IS HER 62 00:03:46,526 --> 00:03:52,298 OUTLET. WRITING RECENT 63 00:03:52,298 --> 00:03:54,367 RELATIONSHIP. WHY WAS IT IMPORTANT IN A TIME 64 00:03:54,367 --> 00:03:57,237 WHERE YOU PROBABLY ARE STILL RAW TO PUT OUT THAT SONG? 65 00:03:57,237 --> 00:04:02,609 >> WHEN I WRITE MY SONGS, WHEN I GO TO THE STUDIO TO RECORD THEM, 66 00:04:02,609 --> 00:04:07,180 IT IS A VERY CATHARTIC, THERAPEUTIC EXPERIENCE. 67 00:04:07,180 --> 00:04:12,752 ANYTIME I GO THROUGH SOMETHING, ESPECIALLY WHEN I DON'T SAY 68 00:04:12,752 --> 00:04:16,122 THINGS PUBLICLY, I LET THE MUSIC COMMENT ON IT. 69 00:04:16,122 --> 00:04:22,862 AND THAT'S AS FAR AS I WILL COMMENT ON LISTENING TO IS 70 00:04:22,862 --> 00:04:25,131 "CONFIDENT." WHEN DO YOU FEEL THE MOST 71 00:04:25,131 --> 00:04:29,869 CONFIDENT? >> YOU KNOW, I FEEL LIKE I HAVE 72 00:04:29,869 --> 00:04:35,508 THE MOST CONFIDENCE WHEN I AM WORKING ON MYSELF. 73 00:04:35,508 --> 00:04:39,112 AND READING BOOKS, WHICH HAS NEVER HAPPENED, I AM NOT A 74 00:04:39,112 --> 00:04:41,114 READER. THAT'S WHEN I FEEL MOST 75 00:04:41,114 --> 00:04:44,217 CONFIDENT, WHEN I FEEL LIKE MY SMARTEST SELF. 76 00:04:44,217 --> 00:04:52,625 >> I WOULD SAY SMART IS SEXY. MY GRANDMA USED TO HAVE A PILLOW 77 00:04:52,625 --> 00:04:55,829 THAT SAID READING IS SEXY. I LOVED THAT. 78 00:04:55,829 --> 00:05:00,467 GOING BACK TO HOSTING, I THINK YOU GUYS ARE HONORING TRACY 79 00:05:00,467 --> 00:05:05,638 ELLIS ROSS, J.LO, TYLER PERRY, ALL THESE INCREDIBLE ARTISTS. 80 00:05:05,638 --> 00:05:08,608 HOW MANY PINCH ME MOMENTS DO YOU FEEL YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE THERE 81 00:05:08,608 --> 00:05:13,079 ON THE STAGE? >> YOU KNOW, I THINK JUST 82 00:05:13,079 --> 00:05:17,717 HONESTLY, THE BIGGEST PINCH ME IS LIKE I AM SO GLAD THAT I WILL 83 00:05:17,717 --> 00:05:23,123 BE ON A STAGE AT ALL THIS YEAR. I COUNT MY BLESSINGS EVERY DAY 84 00:05:23,123 --> 00:05:26,159 THAT I'VE BEEN ABLE TO STAY SAFE WHEN THAT HASN'T BEEN THE CASE 85 00:05:26,159 --> 00:05:30,196 FOR A LOT OF PEOPLE. MY BIGGEST PINCH ME IS BEING 86 00:05:30,196 --> 00:05:32,832 ALIVE ON A STAGE. >> BEAUTIFUL. 87 00:05:32,832 --> 00:05:34,901 BEAUTIFUL. LOVE HER. 88 00:05:34,901 --> 00:05:37,437 LOVE HER. >> CATCH DEMI ON PEOPLE'S CHOICE 89 00:05:37,437 --> 00:05:45,945 AWARDS SUNDAY NIGHT AT 9:00, 8:00 CENTRAL ON OUR SISTER 90 00:05:45,945 --> 00:05:51,418 NETWORK, E! SHE STARTED MEDITATING, SHE SAID 91 00:05:51,418 --> 00:05:55,255 SHE NEVER FEELS ALONE, AND SHE'S NEVER BORED. 92 00:05:55,255 --> 00:05:59,259 SHE CAN GO AND BREATHE AND BE. I THOUGHT YOU KNOW WHAT, ANYBODY 93 00:05:59,259 --> 00:06:03,697 TRYING TO CONTINUE TO SPREAD POSITIVITY IS BRAVE IN OUR EYES. 94 00:06:03,697 --> 00:06:07,067 >> FACING ALL THESE CHALLENGES, GOING THROUGH ALL THIS STUFF 95 00:06:07,067 --> 00:06:12,038 WHILE IN A PANDEMIC. >> AND REALLY YOUNG. 96 00:06:12,038 --> 00:06:16,409 SHE'S SOBER BEFORE SHE WAS ABLE TO DRINK, AT 19. 97 00:06:16,409 --> 00:06:16,409 TO DRINK, AT 19. SHE SUFFERED A RELAPSE.